Nan Kozul, June 21, 2020 (Part 2)

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00:00:00 - Interview Introduction 00:01:56 - Using Reiki to help AIDS patients

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Partial Transcript: LB: Okay. So we started talking before, so once again this is the second part, this is part two, of Nan Kozul’s interview of talking about the HIV/AIDS epidemic in the nineteen eighties and nineties. So part one is already available and I think in part one we were talking a lot about -- well, we were talking about in general a lot of things, about some of the things you were doing and where you were working and people that you knew. And since we talked, because of those surprise technical difficulties, have you thought anymore about that? Like, I thought I should have said these things, or did it make you think about those things more? I think it was -- what do you think?

NK: Well, I realized that AIDS wasn’t a quick killer. Like I saw my friends who wound up with AIDS, they kind of -- it went slowly. I just remember some of my friends just kind of like losing weight, and just getting sickly, but it wasn’t fast.

00:09:44 - Pranks by the Stonewall and Candida's / Stealing the "Candida's" record and tying up Nan

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Partial Transcript: LB: I was talking to Larry Kleppinger and at the end of the interview he started to tell me about all the wacky things that two bars did to each other.

NK: Oh, my God.

LB: Do you remember any of those? [laughter] I was talking to Trish about this and he was talking about all these crazy things. And then what ultimately happened was Candida’s said okay, now we’ve got to do something. We’ve got to make this pay, in effect. So talk about that a little bit, what do you think?

NK: (laughs) That was just --

LB: The memories of --

00:12:39 - Creation of FACT / The Summer Olympics and Bar Games

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Partial Transcript: NK: And all for a good cause, just to eventually come down to that point where everyone got together and created FACT. And then to have the games at Rainbow Mountain. Everyone took it so seriously for a number of reasons: for competition and to win, but also to know that the end result was we were getting money and creating something to help people. So it was really cool.

LB: Did you work at the games or did you have a table? What was that like?

NK: The games were -- (laughs) they came up with different things like drag racing, “drag” racing where they had to put on a hat -- it was hysterical. So there was a start and end.

00:16:55 - Men hooking up at the bar

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Partial Transcript: LB: I think you have to explain what you mean by that.

NK: Oh, well (laughs). It was new to me. Hell, I never saw women do that (laughs) but guys would just hook up. I remember being behind the bar and seeing a guy nod and (laughs) and they would talk and they would leave and they would go out and whatever they did. And then they would come back in. And sometimes -- I know of one guy that came into the bar, he would do it a lot.

00:20:00 - Women being HIV positive / Taking care of people who were ill

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Partial Transcript: LB: I wanted to talk about what that kind of stuff that was happening and there were people that were in. So I’m trying to -- suddenly aware that there was an issue. And I think I asked you before about people that were -- everybody stepped up. I think people really stepped up. LGBT people suddenly thought, okay, this is about us. We have to take care of each other. And people started to really take care of each other, especially when families were ostracizing their children, their sons who were HIV positive. Not very many in those days got HIV in our community I don’t think. I don’t know. Did you know any women who were HIV positive that you were aware of?

NK: No, even though I have to tell you, I work in a doctor’s office and I marvel at the amount of women that are HIV now. Just having me go into their -- read their history with the patients. I marvel at how many women are positive today. Because you didn’t see that in the eighties.

00:22:47 - FACT raising money for direct aid

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Partial Transcript: LB: And that was one of the reasons that FACT started up was to help people finance (inaudible). Because that wasn’t -- in fact, I don’t know that people really understand that FACT wasn’t around to raise money for research or something. It was direct aid.

NK: Direct aid. Absolutely, Liz. It was directly to help them. I remember when FACT first started out I just vaguely remember people getting groceries for people that were positive, taking them to doctor’s appointments, stuff like that.

00:24:13 - Stigmas and lack of knowledge about AIDS

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Partial Transcript: LB: And there was a time -- were you aware of a time where people really thought if you just went into a gay bar, you just walked around people, or you might have been in the restroom. People thought you could get it from toilet seats, do you remember that?

NK: Yeah, some of it was such nonsense with how you could catch AIDS. It was idiotic. It was a blood-borne thing. And I was -- it was transmission through blood. So I remember Johnny, this one guy that lived in Philly, we all kissed him.

00:28:37 - Friends who are HIV positive and how they grow older / Watching people get frail and come to the bar less

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Partial Transcript: LB: There must be twenty people dying at the beginning of the epidemic in six months and then improving forty years (inaudible).

NK: I’m just curious, my friends that are HIV today, how they’ll fare moving forward. Some of them are in their sixties, early-mid sixties, late sixties, and they’re still plugging along (laughs) so it’s really awesome to know that that medication was able to keep the numbers down that they’re not symptomatic.

00:31:13 - Jeff's bar / Diamondz opening in 1992

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Partial Transcript: LB: What were the other bars? There was Jeff’s. Tell me about Jeff’s. I went to Jeff’s maybe all of one time and then it was kind of not there. I think I came to the Lehigh Valley in nineteen eighty-seven so I think I went one time. And then I met Trish and we weren’t really hitting bars but it was right then when we met. But what was that bar? I don’t think it was there much longer after nineteen eighty-seven or eight. Is that true?

NK: No. That’s funny because I actually (laughs) googled it because I was curious, like, wow, when did Jeff close his bar? Because I couldn’t remember when he closed it. I know it was up for eighty-eight, eighty-nine, and then it closed. And then Diamondz opened up in ninety-two I think.

00:34:40 - Candida's bar being like a family

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Partial Transcript: NK: (laughs) It’s crazy. Dina’s bar was so -- Candida’s was a small bar but I just remember how much of a family -- like we were talking. It was such a family. We did such things in that bar that were just so crazy. Like just fun things that it would be wall to wall people. Like you could not move. And it was just amazing. And we accepted everybody. And that’s what was so great about Candida’s. And even during that time when HIV was prominent there was never anyone that was shunned. And that’s the beauty of what gay people are about because we are so loving and so accepting, do you know what I mean?

00:35:54 - Uninformed assumptions on how HIV/AIDS was transmitted / President Clinton working to remove the stigma of having HIV

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Partial Transcript: LB: Did you ever have a circumstance -- and this happened to me -- a circumstance where you were talking to somebody about HIV who was not in the know and they said negative things about it and you said, “that’s not true.” That kind of thing. Did that ever happen to you, where people --?

NK: Not in the bar.

LB: I mean anytime in your experience.

NK: Oh, in anytime? Oh, yeah. (laughs) People were just -- I mean, before they came out with the -- about it being transferred through anal sex, they were -- I would hear people say, “no, you can get it from spit, you can get it from kissing, you can get it from touching.”

00:40:11 - New York Times article on Reiki being administered to AIDS patients

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Partial Transcript: NK: Well, I remembered after we were done talking, I said to Barb, wow, I forgot to tell Liz about the New York Times article about the reiki because in the eighties it was all about being spiritual (laughs) and just tapping into your quiet place and reiki was a great modality. People didn’t understand it but I thought it was really progressive for The New York Times to have such a big article and how impacted a lot of the gay men and giving them a moment of peace or calm by just administering reiki to them.

00:41:05 - Bartending and reflections on the 1980s

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Partial Transcript: NK: But I feel so blessed to be able to be a part -- remember, I said to Dina I would never want to redo the eighties because there were some sad times but there were so many good times. And I think it was because we were all interconnected. We all felt safe. What’s really funny is because I bartended in the gay bars for so many years, I mean I bartended at the Stonewall, I bartended at Candida’s and Jeff’s Cityline Pub, 13th Street Pub in Easton, I mean I tended Rainbow Mountain, I went down to New Hope and I bartended there sometimes. And so being in that community, it allowed me to just be myself and just have fun. And I remember (laughs) finally actually moving. I wound up managing a straight bar that was the sister to the Chicken Lounge. It was Marble’s down in Phillipsburg.

00:44:58 - Differences in bars for men and women / Lesbians supporting gay men in the community during the AIDS epidemic

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Partial Transcript: LB: Do you think that that’s because -- I think there was a big difference between the seventies and the eighties in terms of the division between men’s bars -- men’s and women’s bars -- because I went to a woman’s bar. And I talk about this all the time and now I can’t think of the name. It’s in Baltimore and it was --

NK: In New York?

LB: Club Mitchell. It was in Baltimore. And this was a bar that would not allow men in unless they knew the men.

00:48:01 - Valley Gay Press and Steve Black / Political activism / Gay and Lesbian Task Force / Le-Hi-Ho and the AIDS Services Center

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Partial Transcript: LB: One of the things that people need to understand, I think, is that in the nineteen-eighties, while we did have just the beginnings of some other groups that weren’t bar-oriented, like we had GLOSS, that sports group, and Force was kind of starting up, and MCC had been going for awhile. And then we had the League -- Gay and Lesbian Task -- or Lehigh Valley Gay and Lesbian Task Force. And then just after that we started PA-GALA. And there had been Le-Hi-Ho, which had been both men and women. But really in the eighties, the only thing that was really going in the eighties was the bars. And if the bars hadn’t existed, nothing else would have come out of that because that’s where people started out where they started to make --

NK: Wow. That’s so true. When did your Valley Press come out, when did that come out?

LB: Valley Gay Press, we started the Valley Gay Press in nineteen-- so Trish and I met Steve Black in nineteen ninety-four and we began to work on political stuff with him that year. I think we started the Valley Gay Press in nineteen ninety-eight.