00:00:00Anita Niles-Lee
2020-07-13
LIZ BRADBURY: And you can actually see a little red dot actually and that means
it's recording. Now if you look at your picture, you can see where your head is
in the recording. So, you're not looking in the middle.
ANITA NILES-LEE: So I skootch?
LB: A little bit, but it will look like you have a halo. Which I think is kind
of cute. (laughter) I'm going to start my audio recording too, so that's good.
There you go. So, we're recording. Now you really look --
ANL: Oh, I look like a painting. (laughs)
LB: Wonderful. I am going to read you this stuff because we're recording now.
This says -- oh, I have to turn off my phone, I want to do that. And I want to
pin -- what we call pinning the video. And so, I'm going to pin this. There.
That means that when we talk it doesn't keep jumping back to me. Just your
00:01:00picture, so your picture is really big. Terrific, you look terrific. Let's see,
I did that, I did that, and I did the audio and the video. With this project,
Bradbury-Sullivan LGBT Community Center and the Trexler Library at Muhlenberg
College will collaborate on forty years of public health experiences in the
Lehigh and the greater Lehigh Valley LGBT community, collecting and curating
local LGBT health experiences from HIV/AIDS to COVID-19. My name is Liz Bradbury
and I'm here with Anita Niles-Lee.
ANL: Niles-Lee, yes.
LB: To talk about her experiences in the Lehigh Valley and also regarding the
LGBT community during this time of the COVID pandemic, COVID-19 pandemic, as
part of the LGBT Community Archive. Today is the 13th, Monday July 13, 2020, and
00:02:00thank you so much for your willingness to speak with us today. To start can you
please state your full name and spell it for me.
ANL: My name is Anita Niles-Lee. It's A-N, like Nancy, I-T-A, Niles, N-I-L-E-S,
hyphen Lee, L-E-E.
LB: And will you please share your birthdate. Now some people said they didn't
want to give the year, I've been fine with it, doesn't matter either way.
ANL: At this age I was born on May 12, 1959. (laughs)
LB: You're a baby. Okay. What town are you in?
ANL: I'm Reeders, Monroe County.
LB: Reeders.
ANL: Right, if you look on the map it's labeled Stroudsburg, but it's really Reeders.
LB: You're in the Stroudsburg area.
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ANL: Yes.
LB: Okay, great. This is the consent portion. Do you consent to this interview today?
ANL: Yes, I do.
LB: Do you consent to having this interview being transcribed, digitized, and
made publically available online in searchable formats?
ANL: Yes, I do.
LB: Do you consent to the LGBT Archive using your interview for educational
purposes in other formats including films, articles, and websites,
presentations, and anything that we may not know of.
ANL: Anything to help.
LB: Great. So, yes is the answer to that.
ANL: Absolutely yes.
LB: And do you understand that you'll have thirty days after the electronic
delivery of the transcript to review your interview and to identify parts that
you'd like to delete or change, or withdraw your interview from the project
because you just don't think it's good enough. If you want to do that you can.
ANL: Yes, I understand.
LB: Great. And so, I'm just going to ask you a couple of questions that are
00:04:00demographic questions. One of the things we ask people is, we ask people about
their sexual orientation and gender identity, and I'd like for you to just kind
of fill in because you are an important part of the LGBT community, how that
works for you.
ANL: I am heterosexual. Is that what you want me to say?
LB: And cis gender I think you are? Right?
ANL: I am cis gender, yes.
LB: But I think also you're really an integral part of the -- or have been an
integral part of the LGBT community along with your family members, so do you
want to say something about that?
ANL: Well, when my son came out in the late nineties, my family, we were taken
by surprise, I guess you could say, so he had given us a book, I don't remember
the name of the book, but at the end of the book they mentioned PFLAG. So, my
husband and I found the Allentown chapter of PFLAG at that time with Don and
00:05:00Melinda Kohn. And when we went there we were absolutely blown away by the
support and the love that PFLAG offered. And we realized in our area, which
isn't far from Lehigh Valley, but in Stroudsburg that's like light years away,
we needed something in the area. So, we started PFLAG Monroe County back in I
think it was '98 or '99.
LB: Yeah, that was great that you did that. Thank you for doing that.
ANL: Long time. (laughs)
LB: I need to ask you what your zip code is.
ANL: 18360.
LB: Okay. And it does say what is your age on here, which I think you kind of
identified by giving your -- but anyway.
ANL: Sixty-one. (laughs)
LB: And I've asked you already about how you identify within the community,
which you've said. Here are some things -- and then there's a bunch of different
00:06:00questions on here, I've already sent you these questions, but I just really
going to start it out, you know, you can talk about anything you want with
regard to the COVID pandemic and how it's affecting you, and you don't have to
talk about all the questions that I asked, but let's start out with just asking
are you home, are you working or are you at home, or what's going on for you?
ANL: My husband and I have been basically strict quarantine since the second
week in March. He lost his job, so that kind of made it easy to totally
quarantine. He was working in New Jersey and his job is affiliated with the
airline industry, which we all know how that is doing, so he was laid off pretty
early in the process.
LB: I see. Yeah. I lost one of my pages of questions.
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ANL: Oh, take your time.
LB: You probably have them there. But let's talk about -- oh for heaven's sakes.
I can't even search for it on my -- do you have the questions there, the other questions?
ANL: You know what, I have them on my phone if I can just get up and get my phone.
LB: I have them on the phone. Never mind, I can look them up. I'll look on my
phone and we'll just pray that it doesn't ring. Talk a little bit about before
as we're doing this, let's talk about if you know anybody who's had the illness
or --
ANL: My husband has lost three family members actually. He lost three elderly
members, one thought she had a cold. And it was within the second week, I think,
that the virus broke out in New York. And they brought her into the emergency
00:08:00room and never saw her again. And another in New Jersey was high risk and he
managed -- he caught it. And he just lost another relative in Brooklyn last
week, all in their 80s, all really, really frail. But nonetheless.
LB: Here we go. I'm good now. How has that affected -- I mean, both of you are
at home and you're not going out. Are you not going at all or you're just going
out really carefully? What's the circumstances?
ANL: We go out, we try to go out once a week very early in the morning just to
chores. We never go out on weekends, weekends are -- we just lock down on the
weekends. So, that's pretty much been it. I've only seen my daughter once since
00:09:00-- my daughter who lives in Nazareth, we've only seen each other once since it
started. She went back to work last week and I'm terrified because she has a
congenital heart disease and her going back to work if she catches this it will
kill her. It's been really hairy.
LB: What does she do?
ANL: She works at one of the restaurants in the Valley. A rather well-known
restaurant but they're not following precautions, so it's really scary. It's
really scary.
LB: I had hoped to interview a couple people, people you probably know who have
had it themselves, and they're actually so affected by it, I mean, they're
better, but the effect it had on them is so serious that they can't talk about it.
00:10:00
ANL: I can't -- yeah, I can't imagine. And his first family member, because of
the way it was they couldn't even have a funeral. It was just -- it's that bad.
And I'm just astounded by my daughter tells me people are in restaurants without
their masks, and laughing, and joking, and making fun of the workers They
grabbed a lady's hand and went, "Ha, ha, 'rona, 'rona." Yeah, it's bad. And I
find it frightening, I find it very frightening.
LB: That's terrible. It's so upsetting. I mean, you can't -- and so, does she
have any recourse in situations like that? I guess if it's in a restaurant it's
hard to require people to cover their mouths.
ANL: Well, I think what the employees are thinking of doing is just reporting
00:11:00that they're not following guidelines. They don't know, but they're hoping maybe
it can get them fined, or shut down, or just bring attention to the matter
because when someone did complain to an owner he said, well, if you leave we'll
take it as your resignation. I think the only recourse they have is to report it
and hope that someone comes in and does something so they'll take it seriously. Yeah.
LB: Yeah. And you have other -- do you have just two kids?
ANL: I have Justin, who's in LA doing very well. He actually went to one of the
Black Lives Matter protests because he's hard to keep down. And he's active out
there, but safe. They quarantine, they have a quarantine group, and those are
00:12:00the only people they've seen. He's doing well. And as you know, my children are
half-Chinese, so we have a lot of that going on too.
LB: Has it been an issue?
ANL: My daughter in Florida was called the N-word by someone in a car who rolled
his window down, yelled at her, and that happened. My other daughter was coming
out of a Target and got the ching-chong, you know, go back to China. Other
lovely stuff is going on in the world these days.
LB: Has that caused them to also not want to go out? Have they had job discrimination?
ANL: My daughter in Florida has been in quarantine -- you're going to think I'm
telling you a soap opera. Her and her husband separated during the pandemic. So,
00:13:00she's quarantined with the three babies, and Nana can't get down there. So,
there's that. And my daughter in Nazareth her boyfriend won't let her go out by
herself at night anymore. He just -- it's safer for her to stay at home. And
Justin seems to be doing well. He's working, it hasn't really affected his work.
He's just more upset with all the garbage that's going around right now.
LB: So, it's just you and Daniel in your home?
ANL: Yes, just us chickens. (laughs)
LB: Now at least you're not alone. Can you imagine what that would be like to be
since March? I mean, Trish and I have been together here completely sequestered
00:14:00since March, we've hardly been out at all. It's so tough. And to think about the --
ANL: That's why I guess Justin was really smart because before, like right at
the beginning, he and three other friends decided that they would all
quarantine. And once every Friday night they would go to each -- just so they
weren't alone all this time. And when they started protesting, that person was
left out of the group, quarantined for two weeks, got tested, and then they'd
start again. They seem to have worked out a good system for themselves.
LB: It's really entertaining and very positive to hear about smart people.
ANL: (laughs) Really.
LB: Are you talking to him, do you find that you're talking to your family more
on the phone? Are you doing video communicating too?
ANL: Yeah. My daughter in Florida every day. We FaceTime at least once or twice
00:15:00a day. She has three kids. The oldest is five, the youngest are twins, they're
two and a half. So, she's kind of going crazy with that. And she actually taught
my oldest granddaughter how to call me. My daughter works until three in the
morning, so at seven o'clock the babies will call me, and I pretty much FaceTime
babysit for a while in the morning just so she can rest. It's wild. It's so wild.
LB: She's working a regular job?
ANL: She's an ASL interpreter. She hasn't worked since the pandemic because she
worked mostly in hospitals and she's afraid to bring it home. So, she does Zoom
work, and she works at night doing video relay for the deaf. That's how she's
00:16:00surviving until I get down there and she can get back into the community.
LB: Is she in St. Augustine?
ANL: No, she's in Odessa. It's right outside Tampa.
LB: Yeah, I know it, yeah.
ANL: Yeah, they have a huge deaf community down there.
LB: I know.
ANL: And she loves her work, she doesn't want to give that up.
LB: Is she deaf?
ANL: No.
LB: She got into that in college?
ANL: Honestly she watched The Miracle Worker when she was ten, and that's all
she ever wanted to do. It was phenomenal. She never forgot.
LB: The one with Patty Duke?
ANL: Absolutely, the old black and white one. I like old films.
LB: Anne Bancroft is so hot in that.
ANL: Isn't she? (laughs) I have always loved Patty Duke.
LB: (inaudible) about lesbians in it that every lesbian heard. I think that's amazing.
00:17:00
ANL: Mrs. Robinson, come on.
LB: True. But in that movie she actually makes a comment about women going after
younger women. And when I first saw that when I was a kid I went -- Anne
Bancroft is so hot. What's your biggest concern about all this stuff then?
What's been happening?
ANL: Well, I have to be honest, with the pandemic and what's happening with the
transgender community and their rights being taken away and Black Lives Matter,
it's just -- and the Asian whatever he calls it, I can't even remember, I'm
overwhelmed. And some days I wonder if we're ever going to get out of it. They
hate. And I guess because I'm affected from so many different aspects. I just
00:18:00feel like I'm underwater sometimes.
LB: Going back a little bit to communications, have you been communicating with
Justin and stuff so you can see him, or mostly just on the phone?
ANL: We text every day. We have a group text. At least once a day everybody will
send a silly picture or just a stupid, something to make everyone laugh, and so
we know we're all okay. We've been doing it since the start. And once a week we
try to call. We've had four Facebook birthday parties. (laughs) And even down in
Florida the kids had a parade of cars. Instead of a birthday party all their
friends drove by in -- we're adapting, I guess.
LB: They're too young to go to school, so at least you don't have to worry about
that too much, about having to go to school.
00:19:00
ANL: My five year old starts kindergarten. Yeah, well, her mom registered her
for virtual school. Hopefully it's not one of the programs that DeSantis decided
to cut. You can't win.
LB: We have to worry about the way that Pennsylvania is, but it's so crazy in
Florida. We go to Florida all the time. I said we're not going to be able to go
to Florida for years.
ANL: Yeah. I mean, we want to drive down because of her situation because I'm
planning to stay there until the little one starts kindergarten because daycare
is out of the question. And as soon as we were going to drive down, he started
with the Asian stuff. And I said to Dan, I'm not comfortable with you driving
back through the South by yourself. So, I'm kind of grounded now until something gives.
00:20:00
LB: When you said he started with the Asian stuff, you're talking about the
president of the United States.
ANL: Yes, yes.
LB: This Archive is possibly going to be viewed by people thirty year from now,
and when we talk about this kind of stuff, we may not -- I know exactly what you mean.
ANL: Saying that name leaves a bad taste.
LB: I just read a thing saying don't say his name, forty-five is fine. But I
think that people may not understand, and I'm really glad I'm talking to you
about this because as a mom dealing with this from so many different angles and
it's very serious. People aren't going to understand this unless we do these
kind of archives for that history.
ANL: It's true. I mean, a neighbor, she's like why don't you just drive? I'm
like because my husband is a 61 year old Asian man who will be driving back
00:21:00probably at night through the South and no thank you. I just can't even imagine
it. And we don't think like that.
LB: I know. Well, it's terrible. It's a terrible situation. We have Asian people
in our family too and we were asking -- one of them has been sick and has
recovered, she's a young person, an so she really has a high level of
antibodies, she's really safe, she can't get it, and she can't give it to
anybody else, but she's Chinese, and I'm worried about her to send her into a
store because I don't want her to have to deal with that kind of stuff. People
need to start thinking about this stuff.
ANL: I guess I'm different. I kind of raised my kids to be different because I
00:22:00grew up in Chinatown, New York in the seventies and I was the different person
where I grew up. And I was the one that was bullied, and I was the one that was
out-casted. I used to tell them, you're not going to sit in the back of anyone's
bus. And as time went on I realized it's like, Anita, you kind of have to put
your money where your mouth is. And my kids always had it in the back of their
heads that we're different, we have to be careful. And I kind of knock on wood
these days that they were raised that way.
LB: Yeah. Well, you did a good job.
ANL: Thank you.
LB: When you're talking about the LGBT community, and I know Justin has been
very significant in that community, he's a writer, and has done some very
significant work. What's he working on now?
00:23:00
ANL: Actually the Hulu new show, Love, Victor, he's working on the second season
for that show. He's doing that now actually. He has a few movies in the works,
things being transferred from play to movie. He's doing very well, god bless
him. Can't complain. (laughs)
LB: Well, we're lucky. I know one of the good thing about our community and
being in the state of Pennsylvania is that we're in a state with a governor that
is smart, and we also have a really terrific Secretary of Health. Want to talk
about that? Talk about that.
ANL: I adore her. (laughs) I'm always on Facebook as everybody pretty well
knows, and some of the comments I get about that poor Dr. Levine are horrible,
00:24:00horrible. And I give her one-thousand percent credit for getting up there and
doing what she does every day. She's amazing, she's amazing. She's a hero, I
have to say.
LB: She is. And we're lucky to be in a state where at least we have a governor
and a Secretary of Health who says science things.
ANL: Absolutely. Absolutely. I worry now that Mr. Trump is now trying to
discredit Dr. Fauci. That has me concerned. I mean, when doctors say that
patients are telling them they're lying, you're telling me I have it and I don't
because it's -- have you ever? Never.
LB: Can't imagine, I can't understand why. It's this whole thing of sort of
00:25:00wanting something, it's like a little kid that wants something to be a way, so
they just won't listen to anything.
ANL: I can't fathom it. And that he has a cult. I'm sorry, that's what I call
them. There's no rhyme or reason.
LB: Yeah. (laughs) I have questions on here that don't apply to you, they have
to do with queer dating hook-up sites, probably you're not using those.
ANL: No, I haven't used those. (laughs)
LB: Let's talk about like what things have changed in your life? Things that
have specifically changed in your life that are happening now, what stuff is --
in a way because Daniel is not working, you don't have to worry about him
working, so there's that.
ANL: Thank god.
LB: But, I mean, if you've been in since March, Trish and I have been too
00:26:00really, it's interesting to imagine that we've done things that we would not
have normally done.
ANL: Yeah.
LB: Have you done that?
ANL: We started, I call it my pandemic garden. Dan and I are die hard city
people, so this is the first time we've ever really gardened. And I'm enjoying
it. It's actually brought us together. At the beginning we were almost ready to
kill each other. It was just the closeness and I guess all the stress, and
everything was just so horrible. And I just said, why don't we do a garden. And
it's been healing. I found it healing.
LB: It's a flower garden or a vegetable garden?
ANL: A vegetable garden. And I even had potatoes in honor of you and Trish
because I look at your pictures every year and I'm amazed.
00:27:00
LB: I'm going to send you stuff to put in your garden. (inaudible) onions, which
are perennials. I think yeah, this is the -- usually we go away and we don't get
a chance -- because we're aware we have another person water it, but they're not
weeding it, and he actually came and saw the garden and said, this is the best
I've actually seen the garden. And I said, yep, because we're maniacally --
ANL: Pull weeds. (laughs)
LB: What do you have in the garden?
ANL: I have potatoes, and I'm growing garlic, and broccoli, and cauliflower, and
squash, and you name it, I've got it out there. But we did kind of let the
cucumbers get this big. We're learning.
LB: Here is something you can plant. The next time you go to the grocery store,
if you go to an organic, a place that has organic vegetables, get a celery, a
full sized celery. Then cut the bottom off. Do you have celery in the garden?
00:28:00
ANL: Actually I have celery in my refrigerator as we speak.
LB: Well, cut the bottom off and take that bottom and put it in a little thing
of water, not up real high, and grow some roots out of the bottom of the thing,
you know where the bottom is --
ANL: Really?
LB: Once those grow down and you've got a little bit of roots, you can put it in
the garden, water it like a regular thing, and celery will grow out of it. We
have celery in our garden now that is growing.
ANL: That is phenomenal, I have to do that.
LB: It's really terrific. If it's organic then it will grow more, but it should
probably even work if it isn't organic, but it should be okay. And we have two
plants that we started earlier and we actually had one other celery plant that
came from Rodale, but it's been -- it's very successful. It's very easy to grow
that. And you know how you can -- and then when it's time to eat it, and you can
eat it when it's small too, you just cut the pieces off, you don't have to pull
00:29:00it out, so that it keeps --
ANL: Pull the whole thing, yeah. I've actually gotten into on Facebook, I found
a group, Beneficial Weeds. I'm learning which weeds in my garden can be used as
tea, and salves, and all this other -- it's pretty fascinating.
LB: Purslane.
ANL: Yes, I have tons of it. I actually had chamomile and I never knew it.
LB: That's wonderful. Good for you, Anita, that's really a good thing. So,
that's something you're doing that you normally wouldn't do.
ANL: No, I never would have even fathomed it. I'm learning that we can make
ourselves happy sometimes. And that's what we're doing. Dan and I have found new
ways to connect now that there's no kids.
LB: Are you growing green beans?
ANL: No, we didn't do green beans. We're going to do them next year. But I am
00:30:00growing Chinese ginger.
LB: That's a -- ginger is --
ANL: I love Chinese ginger.
LB: Sure.
ANL: I have a friend next year sending me seeds from Hong Kong.
LB: Now you know that the thing we grow, we don't grow potatoes anymore, we grow
sweet potatoes. So, that's what we really grow.
ANL: How do you do that? It's not like regular potatoes, right?
LB: There's two ways of doing it and we actually get a company sends us the
little starter sweet potatoes and they're like roots and we plant those, we get
about fifty of those and we plant those in the garden. But you can also do it
just by getting an organic sweet potato from the store, especially one that
might have sprouted a little bit, and then just do that thing that you do when
you sort of put it in water with some toothpicks and stuff so that it sprouts
up. Then if you plant the whole thing in the ground, it will begin to have
00:31:00leaves, and it will get roots, and it will grow the potato.
ANL: Well, then I might have a sweet potato out there. We had one and I told
him, I said, oh just plant it. But then I was reading and I said, it doesn't
sound like we're going to get any but you can eat the leaves.
LB: You can eat the leaves. They're called Kumara, yeah.
ANL: I found a Chinese recipe for them. So, we're going to try them.
LB: You can eat the leaves. They're like lettuce, it tastes like lettuce or
spinach, sort of a halfway between lettuce and spinch. And they're so prolific,
you can get so many leaves. But the thing about sweet potatoes is they're a
very, very long season. So, if you planted it in the spring, when did you plant
it about?
ANL: I think I planted it in the beginning of May.
LB: Well, if you leave it all the way, don't be tempted to dig it up until it
starts to freeze. And then --
ANL: Really?
LB: Yeah. Because they're a long season. And so, if you get Georgia Jets, which
00:32:00are the red ones, those are the fastest because they're called Jets. And you
might have a hard time getting, but you absolutely can eat the leaves. And if
you dig down and you really don't see anything, leave it there until next year.
(overlapping dialogue; inaudible) itself next year. Another thing is if you take
the vines and you bury the vines, they will get roots that will go down and make
potatoes too.
ANL: Now that's probably what he'll do because he loves doing stuff like that.
Thank you for the tips.
LB: Yeah, those are great though. That's our biggest crop. We get so many sweet
potatoes that there are enough for the whole year. We'll give you the name of
the place where we get the roots from. But you really can grow from it from
sweet potatoes from the store.
ANL: It's amazing. Well, I'll let you know what happens. Because I have that one growing.
00:33:00
LB: I'm dying to know. That sounds terrific. You were running PFLAG for so long,
are you not doing that as much now? What's the plan? What's the deal?
ANL: It had died down for a very, very long time. Sporadically I would get
people asking for information and help over the internet, but the last year,
after I think it was around December, I started hearing about a lot of young
people getting upset with all that was going on with all the politics. So,
someone had started the PFLAG chapter again, we had one meeting in February, and
then the pandemic hit. I mean, I withdrew because I had differences with that
person. I didn't think that -- we had different ideas of ways of -- so, I
00:34:00decided that I would step down and we'll see what happens. Hopefully everything
will go well.
LB: If you get calls from people, particular families of transgender youth, we
have now we're running at the Community Center twice a month, a virtual Zoom
meetings for families of transgender kids.
ANL: Right, that's where I always refer everyone, Bradbury-Sullivan Center is
the place to go.
LB: Feel free to send them directly to me if you think because -- although we
have fourteen employees now, which is amazing.
ANL: Wow. That's fantastic.
LB: So, we have fourteen wonderful employees and they're wonderful, they're just
incredible, and Adrian is wonderful. But a lot of times when people call, they
have very time consuming jobs, and I still run the info line so that if people
00:35:00call and they need somebody to talk to and ask questions, they don't always have
-- there's not always an opportunity for them to have the kind of information
from -- some of our employees are new to the community so they can't refer --
like if (inaudible) or anybody who's LGBT in Stroudsburg, they don't even know
what (inaudible) is, much less --
ANL: Yeah. No, I always refer everyone to you guys because I mean, up here it's
sparse. And it tends to get sticky up here at times. So, I always, you guys are
like number one on my, you're on my rapid dial. (laughs)
LB: Do you know or has anybody contacted you or people who are being out during
the pandemic that are finding that to be -- because some youth are having
problems with it.
ANL: Actually my -- my most recent call from help was a lady down in Florida.
00:36:00Someone I know in Florida gave her my number, and her daughter just started
their hormone, their HRT, and she's having a very hard time with going out and
going shopping, and trying to be supportive but being stuck, and how they can
get their medicine, and so I did a little research down that end of the town.
But other than that it's been quiet. It seems to be a lot of elderly people
trying to accept. Because the kids seem to be doing wonderfully. At our PFLAG
meeting, the one meeting we had, we had a lady from Lehighton bring her five
year old transgender daughter. But the baby was hiding under the table the whole
00:37:00time, so insecure, and my heart, my heart. But I told her, I said try calling
you guys, you might know other little ones that maybe they can do playdates. And
so, hopefully she called.
LB: Adrian was working on a process, a potential program, and you know we have
to have funding for all these things to pay for anybody because we can't just
have a program, we have to have funding, we have to have support, and really set
it all up and stuff. But he was working on a program for LGBT families with
kids. So, it could be that the kids are LGBT, little kids, so little kids, we're
talking about little kids, zero to six, because kids are looking for playdates
with other kids who are LGBT or families who are pro-LGBT. It could be two
lesbians, it could be two gay men, who have kids, or it could be trans families
00:38:00that have kids, or it could be families that have little kids that are trans or
who are --
ANL: Yeah, it seems like it would be beneficial because this lady was desperate.
She has to homeschool because when she wants to wear a dress to school people
make fun. The school wasn't cooperative with pronouns and things. And she said
she's in a backwards area where there's nothing for her either. I'll contact her
and find out if she talked to you guys yet.
LB: Well, I can say that the most recent Supreme Court decision, the Bostock
Decision, that's a pretty good decision for us. It's about employment, it's not
about schools, but the precedent that it set was very significant. So, things
are going to change with regard to that.
ANL: Yeah, it just takes time.
00:39:00
LB: It does, but when you have the law behind you, the school has to do the
right thing. Right now they don't, but it's going to be that they're going to
have to because of the Bostock decision.
ANL: And those babies, those babies need it, they really do.
LB: They do, they really do. It's absolutely true. I'm trying to get back to my
questions. I lost them. There I go. So, what's the biggest frustration you're
having? You're talking a lot about -- I understand the fears, we all have these,
and I'm so glad that you've got the gardening thing going. But are you having
day to day frustrations?
ANL: Every day I open my eyes and turn on the news. It's almost like do I really
even want to know. Daniel and I have it down to we'll watch maybe morning news
00:40:00until nine o'clock and then it's done. No more until maybe three o'clock and
then it's off for dinner time. Because you can't. It was constant pounding and
pounding. We avoid it. And it's frustrating that I feel we can't go to a lot of
places now because the way things are, people aren't very friendly or very kind.
I even told him when he lost his job, way at the beginning, before any of the
nonsense, I was like for some reason I think maybe it's better. It's just it's
frustrating that my daughter is by herself, I can't get down there to be with
her. My son is in LA. He's got his support group but you know, family, to be
00:41:00there. And he can't come home to visit like he usually does. I haven't seen him
since Christmas. And like I said, with my youngest working in the atmosphere she
works in with a bad heart. It's tough.
LB: It really is. It's really tough. What's the best thing you experienced?
Besides the garden? Although the garden sounds really good.
ANL: (laughs) I guess connecting with friends. People that, you know, we all
work, but I guess I'm on the internet a lot, and I've -- people I went to
grammar school with we've connected because everyone is home. I guess that was
kind of fun.
LB: People who have been contacting you and saying, just checking in to see if
you're okay, that kind of stuff?
00:42:00
ANL: Yes, like hey, is this the [Amy Sitsinbrino?] from Transfiguration in 1972?
(laughs) And it's like yes, it's me. It's just been wild, it's been wild. So,
I'm not missing going out.
LB: That's because people are home and they're thinkig oh, let me look up this
person kind of deal. Is that what's happened?
ANL: Or a memory just pops in your head and you're I wonder what's up with them.
It's been a very strange kind of fun.
LB: Now that you have this Zoom capability --
ANL: I know, my husband is never going to see me again.
LB: You can see how really real it is. It's different than a little phone thing
or something. It's really real time. You're really talking to the person like
they're there almost.
ANL: Yeah, well, we do this on FaceTime. I think FaceTime is pretty much the
00:43:00same thing. But nothing replaces a hug.
LB: That's true. The big difference I think between Zoom and FaceTime, and I
don't know FaceTime that well, but it's much easier on Zoom to have multiple people.
ANL: Yeah, yeah. FaceTime when we do it for our little birthday parties, it
takes a few shots before we get it the right way.
LB: Yeah, yeah. So, think about how techy you're becoming now.
ANL: I know. I have to say I impressed myself with this.
LB: You did. You're brilliant. Thank God that we have this ability to do this,
to communicate with people.
ANL: Yeah, it makes you miss, like my mom and dad died like five and three years
ago, respectively. And too bad, they just missed it, the ability to see all --
00:44:00to have the grandkids and everything, the great grandkids.
LB: Were they in New York?
ANL: Yeah, they never left.
LB: Do you have other family members in New York?
ANL: Yeah. We're estranged. The boys just -- it was -- there is always drama but
when Justin and Adrian came out and someone asked me when they were getting
married, is this a real wedding, how can this be a real -- I was like, done. I
pretty much just said we just can't talk anymore.
LB: Are they married, Justin and Adrian?
ANL: They were. Unfortunately Hollywood. That's what I say, Hollywood. Their
divorce is in the process. Justin's found a new person. And Adrian's still my son.
00:45:00
LB: He's a wonderful guy. They had been together a long time.
ANL: Seventeen and they're thirty-seven, twenty years. They grew up together.
But, you know, they're amicable. And I told Adrian, you'll always be my baby.
Yeah, what are you doing to do. He's like Mommy, I'm so -- I'm like no, no, no
sorry, it's life, it happens. We're okay.
LB: It happens.
ANL: Yeah, I can't -- he was my baby too, I can't. And Justin's okay with that.
LB: Okay, well that's good. Good for him. How worried are you about you getting it?
ANL: Terrified. I was a heavy smoker for many, many years. I have COPD. And my
00:46:00daughter's husband left five weeks ago, and had I not had this terrible history
of lung problems, I would have been on a plane. And I told her, if I come down
there I can't get sick. So, we're just waiting until airlines figure something
out. Because my husband, I won't let him drive.
LB: It's complicated. And it's not like you can take a bus or something.
ANL: Simple little things. I mean, you know every three months I was on a plane
back and forth and it's all stopped. I haven't seen them since Christmas and my
heart breaks.
LB: Such a complicated thing. And is Daniel at risk? He seems like a big
strapping guy.
ANL: No, he's pretty healthy. He has borderline diabetes, it's not full-fledged,
00:47:00but we still won't take chances. It's just not -- especially that his family is
like -- yeah, it's kind of bowling them over so, no thank you, we'll stay home.
LB: I don't mean to point this out, but I'm quite a bit older than you, but
we're older and they're saying that people over 45 are at a much higher risk.
ANL: Yeah, it's true, it's scary. And I know what it's like not to be able to
breathe. I mean, if it's anything like that it's scary. And to have to go
through it alone?
LB: The second layer of it, that whole thing of getting it and then like I know
somebody who had it and it was devastatingly hard for her, but she had family
00:48:00and she also has a lot of medical connections, like she has healthcare
connections. If she hadn't had that, if she'd been -- in fact, I can think of
three people who had it, had they been well they would have died, just no
question that they would have died.
ANL: Yeah, it's horrible. And I mean, not only is it hard for the person with
it, but for the family. His cousins were totally locked out, they had no
information until she passed away.
LB: Was she in New York City?
ANL: New York City during the first three weeks.
LB: Oh no.
ANL: When everything was berserk. And she thought it was a cold. They took her
to the emergency room, the staff converged, and everyone had to leave, and that
was it. They didn't know until she passed.
LB: That's awful. Do you think this is like, and I know how it is for me, but in
00:49:00terms of mental health, I don't see how it can't affect people every day.
ANL: Oh it does. The depression, the depression for me was awful. And the
anxiety. Every time I had to leave my house I would palpitate, I would sweat, it
was horrible. I try not to leave now. And like I said, Dan and I will go out at
six, seven in the morning. And we went to I think it was Walmart and it was
frightening. It was crowded, no masks, it was horrifying. There was a young
woman there carrying a baby, no mask, no nothing, and I was horrified. And that
was it, I told him after that. I stayed in bed for two days after that. And I
kind of told him, I said I can't do that. But I have to be in open air. I'll go
00:50:00to the farmer's market, I'll go to the farm store, but Giant and -- no, I can't.
It's horrifying.
LB: You can't control the other people and they're the ones that are putting you
at risk. I know that you've seen this circumstance that happened here in Lehigh
Valley with the police.
ANL: Yes, yeah.
LB: And I actually had an interview with someone at five o'clock, but I knew
that she would want to go. She's a younger person and she's a person of color,
and I knew that she would want to be at this thing. So, I said let's do your
thing tomorrow. And Adrian said, people should go out and our employees can go
to join this march. But then he went on to say, if you're not at risk. And I
look at the videos of the first march, which was on Saturday, late Saturday
night, and most of the people, because these are Black Lives Matters marches and
00:51:00they wore the mask. I saw one person, but I also noticed that the police were
not wearing masks. And some of them were, but most of them weren't. And some of
the elected officials weren't wearing masks. And I also saw somebody who had
their mask not covering their face. And I know these people are chanting and
shouting. And I understand why, I understand exactly why, but I cannot be around
a bunch of people who are chanting, and shouting, and screaming, even though I
want to be, that's where my heart is.
ANL: It's true. Justin stayed in for most of the protests. The first one he went
to was the big one in LA for the Black Lives Matter at the Pride Black Lives
Matter, he went to that one. And he showed pictures, they were like this. But
they were all masked. And he went and got tested and all of them tested
00:52:00negative. So, I'm thinking maybe protesting is not as bad as indoors.
LB: Well, if you're outside and everybody is wearing a mask. I think with a lot
of those protests for Black Lives Matter protests, you can count on those people
being very careful and not wanting, not getting close if they can avoid it, and
I know these people didn't do it either. But you don't need a lot of people to
infect a big group. You have one person can infect a lot of people and it
doesn't matter if you're wearing a mask.
ANL: And not only that, saying something isn't easy either because you always
have to wonder what's going to happen if I say something to someone to wear a
mask, are they going to try to punch me.
LB: Yeah, no kidding.
ANL: My stress just goes --
LB: I know.
ANL: Because I hate, I couldn't stand being there watching this young mother
00:53:00have her baby, neither of them masked, in the middle of the store, I wanted to
shake her. And you just have to like put your hands under here and go no, can't
do it, can't do it these days. It's horrifyng, I find it, because I'm a mom.
LB: I know.
ANL: And the baby, if you don't want to wear it, fine. The baby.
LB: And even just the baby wearing the mask, it's other people.
ANL: Yeah, breathing on him.
LB: And if you have a -- when we are talking about opening schools and stuff,
how can -- I have a friend who's a pediatrician and she had people ask her, moms
ask her, is it okay for my kid to go to daycare and she said, "Well, let me ask
you this. When your kid goes to daycare, do they ever get a cold from anybody
else at daycare, or the flu, or any other thing?" They get everything at daycare.
00:54:00
ANL: Turbo germs. I call them turbo germs.
LB: Yeah, it's tough to put your life on hold but maybe you need to find
something else to do for a year or two.
ANL: Florida opened daycare on July 8. What they did down there is the daycares
closed in March, but they were still charging. So, my daughter said, I'm not
going to pay, she withdrew them. But a lot of parents had done that, they still
held the slots. When school opened on July 8, the rule was that the children
couldn't have backpacks and they had to be dropped at the door. The parents were
not allowed into the school to see what precautions were being taken, to see how
the children were being set up. My daughter was like, are they crazy. She's like
I want to go in there and see what they're doing. But evidently throughout
00:55:00Florida the parents in daycare have no idea what's going on.
LB: I just don't see how they can possibly -- if you've got one infected kid or
a teacher that's infected, how they can keep that from happening to other people.
ANL: Holidays, how are they going to go on holidays? I have -- maybe it's
because I'm a person of color, I believe this is like his own private genocide.
This is their way of getting rid of brown people, Black people, poor people,
they don't care. It's like clear it out, we'll buy up the real estate. It sounds
very harsh and I know it's like -- but that's how I feel.
LB: I totally understand. I understand exactly what you mean. I've interviewed a
lot of people and this is my third COVID interview, but I interview ten people
00:56:00about HIV/AIDS during the epidemic, and these were older guys, mostly men, three
women and seven men, who lived through the AIDS epidemic. And they were talking
about it in relation to COVID too. And I have to tell you Anita, that although
you see people acting stupid, people that we really know are not acting stupid.
I mean, these guys are not acting stupid, you and Daniel aren't acting stupid,
your kids aren't acting foolishly, so there is an unfortunate segment of the
population who's a bunch of carriers.
ANL: And they don't believe it. And they don't believe it. I mean, if you go
into your physician you're whole life, and they've always been amazing to you,
and they tell you you have COVID, and you turn around and tell them they're
lying, what mind games does he play on people? It's so beyond my capability to
00:57:00understand how these people are so enraptured by that. He's Jim Jones.
LB: Yeah, it's really true. It's really frightening. Well, we're coming to the
end of this. We've been talking for an hour almost. And I just want to, let's
see if I've gotten all of these questions, I think we've covered everything
here. I'm so excited about your garden, I can't wait to hear more about it. Do
you have anything else you -- so think about this way, someday, someday in the
future, somebody is going to look back on this way past perhaps our lives,
because we don't have any information about what happened to people on a person
to person circumstance with regard to the flu epidemic of 1918, which is
comparable to this, where millions of people, millions, in the 50 million people
00:58:00died. And we didn't have any information about that and I think it's important
for us to leave information behind to perhaps educate people about not making
this kind of mistake in the future. Now, in the future, people may look at this
and go, we have this vaccine, or they might go, yeah, half the population is
gone now, or who knows. What do you want to tell those people, those people
thirty, or forty, or fifty years from now who are people like your age or people
your kids' ages, what do you think?
ANL: That we weren't crazy. We weren't speaking hyperbolically. We were truth
tellers. And it's hard, I think, for people like us to understand people so full
of hate and so full of anger. And it's beyond me. And I always thought America
pulled together. America was always the country, I'm sorry, that pulled
00:59:00together. (crying) And we're not.
LB: But you know what? I think this is the problem, the pulling together
requires people being present and right now the people who care the most about
other people can't be present. Because I can't come and hug you. I can't come
and hug and we can't, this group of people who is going to protest for Black
Lives Matter. And the Black Lives Matter stuff has been great. I have to say the
people who are speaking out about that have been very significant. But those
people have to be really careful. Justin can't go and he won't go to every one
of those things because it puts other people at risk. And he is a caring person.
ANL: Yeah, it hurts. It hurts a lot. I do what I can but how much can we do?
There's no -- I feel like we're screaming at the tops of our lungs and no one is
01:00:00listening. Yeah, and it does, it takes you to very dark places sometimes. And
this isn't my America. There's a movie, it's an old one, I'm an old movie
fanatic, White Cliffs of Dover.
LB: What is it called? White Cliffs of Dover. Okay.
ANL: White Cliffs of Dover. And at the end American troops are marching through
England, we saved the day, and it leaves you feeling so happy. And it's like
that's not us anymore. And it made me cry, it made me really cry for something
we lost.
LB: Yeah. But here's something I always say about WWII films, because that's a
WWII film.
ANL: Yeah, it sure is.
LB: WWII films, there's two kinds of films, there are the films that they made
during the war when they didn't know whether they were going to win. Like Since
01:01:00You Went Away with Claudette CoLBert is a great example of that. So, it's a real
movie to encourage people to do the right thing. And then there's movies that
were made after the war when they knew we were going to win. And they're a
different kind of movie. It's a different kind of patriotism. But both of those
things were made to make people more strong in regard to their patriotism. And
the problem is that creative people, I mean, right now it's harder for them to
make a movie about -- you know, we've only been dealing with this since March.
ANL: Yeah.
LB: If you look at like the flu epidemic of 1918, which I talk about a lot, my
grandmother died in that flu epidemic, but in 1918 mostly young people got it.
Mostly young people who were -- not kids, but people from twenty to forty years
01:02:00old. And that flu epidemic was -- it lasted for fifteen months and then it
disappeared because it mutated and just disappeared. But one out of every three
people in the world had that flu. And we're only into what, six months of this,
so far.
ANL: Yeah, we're still at the beginning.
LB: And people want it to be over so bad. People feel that way about war too.
They're like, we want the war to end right away, and they want it that -- they
expect WWII, they were expecting that in both WWII, WWI, Civil War, that it
would end in three months or four months, and it doesn't. And I do think that we
have a chance for hope. We've got some amazing young people, we've got every
person, every real scientist in the world is working on this epidemic. That's
01:03:00one of the things that people who lived through the AIDS epidemic that I just
interviewed compared to this. Because the AIDS epidemic, it was years before
anybody did anything.
ANL: Yeah, that's so true. It's so true.
LB: Even though we have somebody in the White House that is not very smart, and
that's a generous thing to say.
ANL: (laughs) That's very kind of you.
LB: People all over the country and the majority of people quite frankly, I
think, who are aware that this is very, very serious. And it's shocking to see.
It's the people who are out doing stupid things are the people who are stupid.
The smart people are in their houses. And that's one of the problems I think too.
ANL: Yeah, well, I firmly believe Darwin should just do his thing right now.
01:04:00
LB: Yeah, except for there's collateral damage.
ANL: Yeah, they talk to us too. That's the bad part. But anyway, hopefully soon
we can go back to a new normal.
LB: I hope so. Let's hope so. And I think we will actually. I hope that we'll
learn from this, at least for a while.
ANL: I don't think we can go through this again in our lifetimes. I think this
is my full. I could not go through this again.
LB: I really agree, but you think about people in WWI and then they had to do
WWII. So, they had to do that in their own lifetimes. And they were in countries
that were being attacked. There's a kitty.
ANL: That's my baby.
LB: There's another person in your house. That's a beautiful cat. What's your
cat's name?
ANL: Aslan. The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.
01:05:00
LB: There you go.
ANL: He used to have a mane.
LB: I am going to turn off the record button now. But thank you again so much
for your involvement in this. It's been so great.
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