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LIZ BRADBURY: We even have a backup audio one in case the video doesn't work for
some reason.
MARIANNE CUTLER: The little recorder icon has come on.
LB: I can see that. Are you able to twist that a little bit so you don't have so
much space above your head? Because it would be a little bit better.
MC: Well -- I can. Hang on one second.
LB: Okay.
MC: I'm sorry. You're recording and now I need to do this.
LB: We even have a backup audio one in case the video doesn't work for some reason.
MC: The little recorder icon has come on.
LB: I can see that. Are you able to twist that a little bit so you don't have so
much space above your head? Because it would be a little bit better.
MC: Well -- I can. Hang on one second.
LB: Okay.
MC: I'm sorry. You're recording and now I need to do this.
LB: That's all right. That's all right. We've got plenty of time.
MC: So what I need to do is lower it. Is that what you're saying?
LB: Yeah. Yeah. Okay. That's perfect.
MC: Okay. I thought I was [raising it?].
LB: There we go. This is great. There's just not so much space over your head.
You're sort of in the middle, so that's good.
MC: Okay.
LB: Okay. So, it's on and that's on. Yes. So, with this project
00:01:00Bradbury-Sullivan LGBT Community Center and the Trexler Library at Muhlenberg
College will collaborate on forty years of public health experiences in the
Lehigh Valley LGBT community collecting and curating local LGBT health
experiences from HIV AIDS to COVID-19. My name is Liz Bradbury and I'm here with
Marianne Cutler to talk to her about her experiences in the Lehigh Valley LGBT
community during the time of the COVID-19 pandemic as part of the Lehigh Valley
LGBT community archive. We are meeting on Zoom today and it is July 30th. Is
that right?
MC: Yes. It's hard to keep track.
LB: It is. That's something that everyone needs to know with regards to archive
stuff. So yeah July 30th, 2020. So, thank you so much for your willingness to
speak with us today. To start can you please state your full name and spell it
00:02:00for me.
MC: Sure. My name is Marianne Cutler. M-A-R-I-A-N-N-E C-U-T-L-E-R.
LB: Okey-dokey. And will you please share your birthdate?
MC: December 23rd, 1961. I'm fifty-eight and a half years old.
LB: Okay. Well that's good. So what town are you in?
MC: Bethlehem.
LB: Okay.
MC: Bethlehem City. Not township. Bethlehem City not township.
LB: City. Okay. So, and this keeps reminding me to be sure it's recording, so
yes it is. So this is the consent part. Do you consent to this interview today?
MC: I do.
LB: Do you consent to having this interview being transcribed, digitized, and
made publicly available online in searchable formats?
MC: I do.
LB: Do you consent to the LGBT archive using your interview for educational
00:03:00purposes in other formats including films, articles, websites, presentations,
and other formats we may not even know about today.
MC: Now you're going too far. No, I'm just kidding. I do.
LB: Do you understand that you will have 30 days after the electronic delivery
of the transcript to review your interview and identify any parts you'd like to
delete and/or withdraw your interview from the project?
MC: I understand.
LB: Okay. What is your zip code?
MC: 18018.
LB: Okay. Did you say you were thirty-nine and a half, cause that's the next question?
MC: Fifty-eight and a half.
LB: Oh, Fifty-eight and a half. Why did I -- I misheard you.
MC: Wow, thirty-nine and a half.
LB: That's cool.
MC: That's a long time ago.
LB: For a long time after I turned forty, I still thought I was thirty-eight. I
just kept thinking I was thirty-eight and then I'd go wait, no, I'm really not
thirty-eight. How do you identify yourself within the LGBT community?
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MC: I would describe myself as a masculine of center lesbian?
LB: Okay. And cisgender?
MC: Cisgender, yes.
LB: So, there's lots of things we can talk about. You can talk about anything
you want, and in fact we were starting out talking about, let's just go back
into this since we were already in that. We were talking about where we go to
shop. Where we've been going out. So go ahead and talk about that.
MC: Well I'm going out as little as possible just like lots of other people. And
when I am out, I am hyper-conscious of where other people are in relation to me.
LB: Yeah.
MC: So when I'm in the supermarket, when I'm at Wegmans, or, at Lowes, I'm very
conscious of not only where other people in relation to me, but also whether
other people seem to be conscious of where they are in relation to other people.
00:05:00As far as the ones who are just blithely moving along. I'm very sort of
conscious of that. But in terms of the actual places, I mean literally Wegmans,
Lowes for home improvement related things. Couple of trips to CVS. And -- Oh and
the post office I think twice.
LB: Yeah.
MC: Now, I have to leave the house for some other reasons. I've been having some
medical issues that require trips to the doctor's, but anything I can do via,
you know with the tele thing. Therapy and all that. That sort of stuff I'm doing
this way. My daughter, I have a fourteen-year-old daughter who plays field
00:06:00hockey, and she's a goalkeeper, it's awesome.
LB: Cool.
MC: She is hoping to make the high school team. She'll be going into high school
at the end of August. And she's hoping to make their team, because as of right
now they're still declared intention of the Board that governs athletics as if
there will be a fall season. At this moment, that's the view they're taking. So,
they're having optional workouts right now. The team. And she's doing them so I
take her to and from them.
They're wearing masks. They're doing social distancing and I'm keeping my
fingers crossed that all of that is happening the way it should. You know. It's
like, you know you lay everything out and you think what's the relative benefit
00:07:00versus the relative risk here. And then, you know my partner and I both have
been really pretty hyper-vigilant about things. But we're at that point where we
need to start making some decisions that might push that a little bit.
LB: Yeah.
MC: And in terms of relative benefit and risk, the benefit of [Kai?]
participating in this. We decided it was the potential risks of it. So Kai is my
daughter. I also, last May, we call them, "The Guys." A male couple who, one of
whom I had known since I was eighteen. We were on the same floor of our dorm
together. Actually he was our donor for Kai. And he and his partner, of you
know, probably approaching thirty years at this point.
00:08:00
They are very involved with Kai's life. They live in Boston. They're very much
involved with Kai's life as family members. Not as Dad or anything like that.
But we made the decision because they're hyper-vigilant because one of them is
quite, he is actually fairly high risk due to age, that we would join our
bubbles. We did that in May, actually. They came down here for Kai's birthday.
And everything was fine. But they have a place in Provincetown.
LB: Yeah. I saw that you were in Provincetown.
MC: So, Kai and I actually just came from ten days in Provincetown. Well about a
week ago we got back. So we went there, but the drive there. We went eight hours
without using the bathroom.
LB: I know. You know, we go to Florida and it's fourteen hours and I said, we
have to get Shewees.
00:09:00
MC: Yeah, I'm the same. I was going to get them.
LB: She said, I'm not doing that and I said then we can't go because I can't.
She really can't do that stuff. I'm like, ah, look I'll go behind the trees. But
I've never known her to do that. And I said, I don't see how. That's the one
thing. Cause we have a place and we can get down there and we can -- But people
in Florida are horrible. P-town I think....
MC: Oh my God.
LB: Yeah.
MC: People are insane.
LB: It's just horrible. And the numbers are just unbelievably dangerous.
MC: They really are.
LB: But, did you find that people in Provincetown were much more, or enough of
them were okay? Or, what did you think?
MC: You know, it was a very -- I go every summer at least once. And I love it. I
love just the spectacle. It totally recharges my queer. I just love it. It's a
fun, happy place. But it was not the same P-town that I've visited so many times
00:10:00before. I was there during what would have been Bear Week, and I don't know if
you've ever been there during Bear Week.
LB: I've seen pictures. It wouldn't be something to do.
MC: It's usually jam-packed.
LB: Yeah.
MC: It's got to be one of their most, you know one of their busiest theme weeks.
LB: Sure. Yeah.
MC: And it wasn't. It wasn't packed. But, again I, they were not wearing masks
in the main drag commercial street. And they have people kind of situated at
each end who are mask ambassadors. They've got the sash saying mask ambassador.
LB: Of course. So brilliant. I could handle that.
MC: I went a little bit in like just a couple blocks in because there was one
place I needed to go to buy something that I can't buy in Pennsylvania, and I
00:11:00will just leave it at that. But it seemed like most the people who were walking
around were wearing masks.
LB: Yeah.
MC: The beach was, we did go to the beach. And it was comparatively empty.
LB: Yeah.
MC: The distancing wasn't an issue. Yeah, so I mean I felt comfortable there.
But not comfortable enough to just. Like normally I would be hanging out on the
commercial street just watching.
LB: Sure, I know. I've done it.
MC: And you know they'd be doing some -- You know I like a good old fashioned
now and again. Bourbon now and again. You know, visiting certain spots along
commercial street that are my favorites. So there was none of that this time.
But we had a wonderful time despite that. So. Now [Sandy?] is actually not here.
00:12:00Sandy's happy place is. I don't know if you're familiar with this, but there's a
place in Chester County called, oh gosh. I just call it Kimberton. It's Camphill Kimberton.
It is a community. I don't even know how large the land area is. A community for
adults with intellectual disabilities. And it's kind of founded on the sort of
'Steiner' philosophy. So people living in small houses. There's usually four
villagers. One or two -- Usually I guess two what are called "co-workers."
They're people who work in the community. Lots of little houses and lots of you
00:13:00know they have a dairy and a bakery. And you know CSA on their property as well.
Huge. Garden. All of that. Herb garden.
LB: Yeah.
MC: Mosaics. Bakery. They sell their goods. There's a Kimberton Whole Foods that
sells their baked goods and all of that as well. So it's this completely insular
bubble unto itself. And Sandy's brother who's profoundly autistic lives in a
very comparable kind of community in New Zealand, which is where she's from. And
so when she discovered this place. She said, "I want to do some volunteer work
there." She usually does just for a couple weeks. But this, obviously it's an
unusual summer. So, in order for her to go, it's actually kind of swell. I bring
them supplies and I know people there. But I don't have the right temperament
00:14:00for volunteering there. I'm not that good a human being, I guess.
LB: I understand. I really understand.
MC: But I help the community in other ways. But anyway. So this year, Sandy and
Kai went, and they had to go into the quarantine there for two weeks before they
were. And they were in their sort of own little private living space. And then
they were allowed to move into the house where they usually volunteer and live
as co-workers basically. So they were quarantined there for two weeks and I was
home alone for those two weeks. But then they were in the house for another two
weeks. So I was actually home alone for a whole month. That was, between being
home all the time and hardly going out, that was a little scary. It's just so
weird. Thank goodness for the dog. That's all I can say. Sandy's still there.
00:15:00Kai I fetched. We went to Provincetown. We're here. So that's a very long answer
to the question about going out. But I haven't done. (inaudible)
MC: At all, except by Zoom.
LB: Of all the people that I've spoken to, and as I said this is 30 interviews
that I've done, you are the I realize that I'm trying to make a lot of different
demographic broader demographics and it's a little harder to do that when you're
talking about people who lived through the 80s and 90s within the LGBT community
in the Lehigh Valley working on the AIDS issues. And it was all white people. It
was different types of people and a little bit different ages, but there all
about the same age or about my age. And everybody was white. So I made a big
effort in the first ten people that I interviewed for COVID to make sure that it
was people of color. And I was able to do that. But I realized that none of the
00:16:00people, and then I've done a bunch of that, I don't think anyone else I've
interviewed has a kid. I realize that I've picked sort of a foolish demographic
with regard to that.
MC: That really changes the equation in lots of ways.
LB: That really does, and so. I have interviewed a few people who are caring for
kids like Roberta Meek -- I don't know if you know her but she's a professor and
a good friend of mine and she's a professor at Muhlenberg. And she's just in the
retirement phase, and she's about my age. And she has, her daughter, her son and
daughter-in-law have four kids and two of them are really little, so she's been
taking care of them. And her whole family is in one bubble so that she's not
cross, there's no danger of that as well.
MC: Right.
LB: So she's been taking care of little kids, but nobody that was really talking
about, and then, I don't think I've talked to anybody else. Because all the AIDS
people they're all old, so -- And in fact, most of them, they're pretty
00:17:00established in their careers, a lot of them are retired with pensions and stuff.
So there's really no financial circumstance that they had to -- Most of those
people. Because I talked about COVID with everybody too. But then making the
decision to talk to the people of color in the first ten COVID things.
The first person. So of all those first ten people, nobody really knew anybody
that was sick, and nobody knew anybody knew anybody who was close to them who
had died. And the first person I interviewed, it was somebody I'd known for a
long long time. But, for the COVID thing said, yeah. Eight family members have
had it and three of them have died. It was the first thing he said. So I have
people in my extended family who have been very very sick. But I'm finding that
00:18:00a lot of people at least think they don't know anybody who's had the disease. So
how about you for that? Do you know people that have been sick?
MC: I have only known people who that, that I'm aware of, that have been tested
because they had hospital exposure. And I know people who have family members --
LB: Right.
MC: --who know people have been sick and died. But my direct relationships with
people, no. On Sandy's side of the family, they're all in New Zealand, and New
Zealand handled this --
LB: I know. I know. I've read all about it. They're just right.
MC: I have leader envy any time I hear anything about. You know they just
issued? a whole chunk of money to the arts. To like support the arts. It's like,
00:19:00you know.
LB: Well the only one thing they've got is there's no tourism because you can't
in general. A bunch of idiots and we've ruined.
MC: That's true. And that's a big hit because that's one of their main
money-makers. But they're not backing down on it. They keep quarantined for two
weeks, period. Sandy wants to actually go back to visit, but by the time she's
done with the two-week quarantine, she'd have to turn around and come home
again. Come here again.
LB: What does she do?
MC: She's a professor at Moravian College. She does medieval history.
LB: Great. So it's really tricky. I mean, I think that. But, I think another
thing is that one of the reasons they had me do these interviews is because
doing thirty in-person interviews in about six weeks -- Not very many people can
00:20:00-- And they have to be part of the queer community. It's hard to get people to
be able to pull that off. Most of our interns, our employees are too young. They
don't know these people. So they make you this gig. So as and I said, "Okay, but
I just want you to know that the Lehigh archive's oral history, it took them two
years to do ten people.
MC: Crazy.
LB: And well I may be a year. But still. There's a reason for that. It's much
easier to do interviews on Zoom. They were doing them with cameras before COVID.
And you have to schedule it and it's much harder. But it's much easier to do
these on Zoom. But the truth is, I know a lot of queer people, and yet --
MC: I would hope so in your person.
LB: It's harder to find, but people that I know, I mean I don't know a lot of
people that are very very cavalier about this. So that's one of the reasons that
00:21:00a lot of the people that I'm interviewing don't know people who are very sick.
Because like I was talking to Steve Libby and Gary Gaugler yesterday, they run
Gay Journal Magazine and stuff. And they said we've been absurdly, I mean. We're
still washing everything when it comes into the house. And they said nobody we
know is like this. And I said actually everybody you and I know together are
acting this way. Because you just aren't aware of it because you're not
communicating with everybody around here.
So, truthfully people are being very careful. Drive around. We had to go to the
doctor at rush hour the other day just for a checkup we had to go to. And there
was nobody. We're driving through Whitehall on 145, because we had to go to
Laury Station. We're coming back. It was four thirty, five o'clock in the
afternoon on 145. We're going past the malls and everything. And it looked like
00:22:00it was Sunday morning, you know. There was hardly anybody on the street in
comparison to what it normally would be.
MC: Right.
LB: And I'm thinking everybody's really back to work. Everybody's on this green
thing and they're all out doing -- It's not really true. It just sort of seems
that way when you look at social media.
MC: LIke I've made the decision that tomorrow I'm getting a haircut. This is
four months growth. This is literally. Because I got a haircut right before we
went into lockdown just because it was convenient. It turned out that way. This
is four months' growth and I, you know. But I had this long exchange with the
woman who cuts my hair. What their protocols were. You know, I'm not just like I
didn't just like call to make an appointment. How are you doing with this, and
how are you and. The whole thing. I assured that. Well, I can't say there's
00:23:00going to be no risk. There will be only very little risk. Because again, it's
the risk benefit thing.
LB: I talked to a person who, it was Alanna Berger who she was one of the
interviews, Alanna Berger and Blaise Liffick. And they're the Silent Witness
people with the big rainbow umbrellas at Pride Festival. They have a transgender
daughter who they said in their interview, they said that they went, that she
went to the dentist and the dentist walked in the room with no mask on.
MC: See, that's -- How can a dentist do that?
LB: I know. And then she, a week later she was sick and she went to her doctor
and the doctor wasn't sure, and thought that maybe she had a -- You know, they
weren't sure about stuff. And then she thought she might have an embolism
00:24:00because she's on estrogen and that can be a (inaudible) -- And people have had
strokes from this and they said sort of said they think it's Coronavirus and
then they dealt with her. And later, they think she's had a stroke. And the only
place that she's been is to the dentist. So I mean. And there's... Frankly the
medical people have been incredibly careful. We're very comfortable at the
medical places.
MC: Right. Absolutely, I've felt the same way.
LB: You know. We also are feeling like we go to the doctor all the time because
that's the only place we've gone. So we've gone out like four times. Or three. I
think I've gone about three times. Yeah, we've gone out three times. And it's
all appointments. So it seems like that's all we do.
MC: Well right before. Again, right before we kind of went into this isolation.
00:25:00In March, I had a series of medical tests and all these follow-ups that they
wanted me to do. Okay, we want you to do this test, that test. Have this test,
et cetera. And then everything stopped. So I spent like more than two months
basically in limbo.
LB: Oh God.
MC: Basically, because they were all I'm not sure the right word to use -- The
level of urgency, they weren't sort of life-or-death tests. So we're putting
this off. We're just dealing with the things that have to be dealt with, etc.
But you know the biopsy, thyroid biopsy. All those different things. And I'm
spending like two and a half months just in limbo. Which was hard. The stress
level of the situation. But once I was able to go back to do the follow-up, I've
00:26:00been impressed with every interaction I've had in that setting.
LB: Well they are trying to, you know, there's --
MC: Apparently that is the new face of the COVID front lines.
LB: Have you seen that meme where the person, said there's a young woman, and
she's sort of looking out the window and it's -- (laughter) (inaudible)
MC: Are you depressed about sleeping with demons -- Something -- (inaudible)
Have you seen the one, might be for you? Have you seen the one, it's a medieval
painting basically. There's a woman lying in bed. And there's a demon sort of
walking away. That face when your demon lover has to go meet with the Lizard
00:27:00people. (laughter)
LB: I mean there are people who are still falling for this stuff. I know. I
actually had someone contact me directly from Texas. Used to live here and she
said, you know I have family members that believe this stuff. Why are you in Texas?
MC: Yeah, that's the pre-existing condition I guess. Well, actually one of the
disappointments that I've experienced. I mean this is all related to COVID,
obviously. It's not some of the direct questions that you sent me.
LB: Everybody else has answered that.
MC: Favorite restaurant in East Stroudsburg. When I'm able to get out of the
office to like go out for lunch or after work to like have a beer with friends
or whatever, is. I don't know if you head up to East Stroudsburg very often, but
there's this wonderful place called the Beer House Cafe. Right on the, I think
00:28:00it's called Crystal Street. The main sort of street of East Stroudsburg.
Fantastic sort of North African, the main chef is, you know, she's got one of
her parents is from I can't remember where, Egypt. North African. Other is South
American. Really interesting food and flavors. I just loved this place. And I
love her.
You know, she's wonderful. We always chat when I'm there. Because I'm a chatty
person, in case you haven't noticed. So, she's like talking about you know the
conspiracy to keep how's it, I'm going to say it wrong. Hydroxychloroquine. The
conspiracy to keep it out of our hands basically. And it's like. And then she
00:29:00started going off on the vaccine conspiracy and autism and I had no idea. This
part of you. And she's not open to hearing other perspectives. And if it weren't
for COVID, I wouldn't have known all this about her. (laughter)
LB: Yeah, that's one of the things about when you go away on vacation. You don't
want to learn about politics of other places where you don't like. Like people
would say to us, "Would you live in Florida?" And we've made an effort to be in
a place that had racial diversity, and stuff that was a little less scary than
every single place is very narrow. Every person is white. But what's happening
there is so ridiculous that it makes it hard to imagine not feeling that when we
00:30:00went back. Because, literally people were wearing masks, young people were
wearing masks, teenagers, are being attacked by people. People are shouting at
them for wearing a mask.
MC: I know.
LB: And one young woman, she was, I know the person. But she said, "I am very at
risk. I'm very at risk. And my granddaughter who's fourteen and wants to be with
her friend who is fourteen." So they go for a walk outside. They social
distance, and they wore a mask. And they were walking down the street. She told
me right where they were and everything. And she said this pickup truck stopped
and people yelled at them and they spit on them, just because they were wearing
a mask. And she said, "You know, my granddaughter, if she got sick she'd
00:31:00probably be okay. But she could really make me sick." I mean she's just trying
to do, a lot of people who are that age, to be sympathetic and not selfish. She
tried to teach people to not be selfish. And she said, and this is why where we
got all the time and, you can get away with it if you don't know. But once you
know this stuff, it's very uncomfortable and -- Yeah, I think that I mean...
MC: And there's no reasoning.
LB: No, there's no reasoning. You really think you could just say here's all
these things that are very easy to understand. I read a thing that said: to be
00:32:00really proactive you should join this work and it was a pro of the kind of the
people that we would be supportive in terms of their political leanings. And
they said don't just post memes and don't just do this. You have to do work and
I said, "Yeah except for that memes are what's changing people's minds." I mean
I need to see a picture of Joe Biden and his policy and a picture of Trump and
the counter-policy where he support the demon lady. And just say like, here's a
guy who supports these things that are for his strategy. And I know actually, I
provided voter information to people for years. And that's how you get people to
vote. You get people to look at that and they go that I saw this thing. They
don't want to read something.
MC: When I post an article I know that some of the people whose feeds that it
shows up on will read it. Or at least -- But I know that other people, they'll
00:33:00just see the headline. Like, if I, and for me if the headline captures something
important, post it. People who won't read it, they'll see the headline and maybe
something will click. You know?
LB: You have to do it that way. But I also think that people need to be. I had
long talks with Trish about this. I think that people need to be posting. People
just tend to post negative things all the time because that's all they're
seeing. And they need to post parts of Biden's platform so that whether you like
this guy or not, his platform, if you compare that to Trump's platform, there's
no challenge. I mean it's like. Do you believe in science? No, I don't believe
in science.
You know, here's how we could have avoided this thing. That's exactly the
opposite of what Trump did. So this guy wouldn't have done it. This guy would
have. I think that that's problem. We're not getting that kind of message and
00:34:00while lots of thinking people will read all this stuff. And they'll be very
familiar with it. And they'll be familiar with court cases. That's not the
people you have to sway. That's the problem.
MC: Right.
LB: The sway people who saw on YouTube something that doesn't, like, it's true.
It's on the Internet. I actually had somebody say that to me in front of Planned
Parenthood one time. They were protesting against Planned Parenthood. And they
were trying to stop someone from going in. And they were saying Planned
Parenthood is trying to make you have babies so they can kill the babies. So
they give you birth control that doesn't work. And I said, "Where did you get
that idea?"
MC: What an insane idea.
LB: How insane is that? And she said, "I know it's true because it's on the
Internet." And I said, "This is not something I can argue with." I know it's
00:35:00true because it's in writing. You know, it doesn't mean anything. And I remember
this person saying this. And then I started to walk away and then I realized why
this person was saying this and she was saying this because she had somehow
taken her birth control wrong, become pregnant, had to have an abortion and then
felt guilty about it so she wanted someone to blame. So it was that kind of a
thing. I sort of said, like I'm thinking why would somebody say this? And it
doesn't really have anything. I think that there are a lot of people who are
trying to justify their vote for Trump which has put the entire world in a
terrible circumstance solely because he was elected. I mean, things would be
totally different. Or be very different.
MC: They'd be very different. We'd still have Coronavirus. We'd still be having
to deal with that. But it would be very different.
LB: We would've rapid testing. We would have had all sorts of leadership that
explained things more clearly and that, well I didn't say you can inject your
00:36:00body with Clorox. You know.
MC: Have you seen -- (laughs) I'm sure you have. You've seen the signs that [Amy
Sinelli?] had made? The Biden, they're Biden signs but they don't say "Biden
2020." They say "Biden, we won't inject you with bleach." or something.
LB: I actually think that's kind of a thing to say. Like I saw a meme that said,
you know, it was a picture of Biden that said, "Let me read you parts of my
platform." And at the bottom it said, "You had me at let me read." I mean, and
really how can you justify the craziness of this circumstance. And so. But I do
think that in some ways it has to be distilled into a much simpler message
because people that are saying this kind of stuff, they still have to be
inundated with stuff saying, "Well okay, this is not true. You're wrong, and
here's why we know that" sound bite. You've got to spend a lot of time reading.
00:37:00You know. And they want to justify the fact that they have done this very
foolish, unthoughtful thing. And what folks said were going to happen. Who would
have even thought that it would have gone this far?
MC: I never thought it wouldn't.
LB: The economy's the worst it's ever been. You know, and you can't say, "Well,
it's not his fault." How could you say that? Well of course it's his fault. He's
the leader. It's not true in New Zealand. It's not the worst economy they've
ever had. In fact their people are looking at them going, "Good job." You know.
They're the leaders of the correct steps to take.
MC: Well I'm just hoping -- I mean obviously I have my preferences, but whoever
Biden announces as his running mate is fine. It's fine. Let's get you elected.
00:38:00
LB: What I'm hoping for is that he announces that he has chosen everyone to be
on his team.
MC: Right.
LB: Chosen, you know, has taken all those people that were a good group of people.
MC: All of them are smart people.
LB: All these smart people, and they're going to be the Secretary of State and
they're going to be the Secretary of Education. Elizabeth Warren is the
Secretary of Education. You know? If he doesn't pick Kamala Harris for vice
president, then he picked her for attorney general. You know, to say that well
everybody could say that I wanted this person, and now they're going to be part
of that. Because under the Obama administration some of the best minds. A lot of
the stuff that happened was because he picked these really smart people. And if
we can appease all of the people on this side of the aisle by saying this is a
guy who picks smart people and then listens to them.
00:39:00
MC: Right.
LB: Let's just do that. And he can say, "I'll keep Fauci." He's a perfectly good
guy too. And I'll listen to him. I'm not going to tell him to say something else
because I don't like it.
MC: Even if he is more popular than I am.
LB: No kidding. That's true. So yeah, and I have said. I publicly posted that I
would crawl over glass to vote for Joe Biden. And certainly I thought there were
other people who would have been much more fun to have as president. But who
cares? I mean we need to live.
MC: I was all about Elizabeth Warren. That's who I wanted.
LB: Her too. But if she's in the administration, it would be a wonderful thing.
Because we'll hear her all the time. You know, throw out Betsy DeVos and have
Elizabeth Warren. How would that change our lives? You know, every moment of the
00:40:00reality of that and I hope that Joe Biden is smart enough to do that. And I hope
the campaign and all of these people are willing to do that and have Bernie
Sanders be somebody who is a major advisor, part of the cabinet, angrily
disagreeing, fine, you know. Fine with that. He's not really my guy, but I'm
fine with that.
He's really good policy, and some people really within reason, a lot of his
economic circumstances, you know what he's talking about is really important.
And it's what we need. And people say, "I don't want this guy, he's too much of
a communist." Well he's not going to be president. So he's not going to be vice
president. So shut up.
MC: Right. And so many don't understand what communist or socialist mean. Right,
that's another one. It's another dog whistle. "Socialist."
00:41:00
LB: If socialists get into the government, they might take away my social
security. (laughter)
MC: Yeah. Exactly.
LB: But, anyway.
MC: They might take away my health care.
LB: I know. Oh God. So anyway. Yeah.
MC: Back to the interview.
LB: No, all these questions I think we're hitting on them anyway so I think
that's kind of the thing. But talk a little bit about what you do, because
you're coming into the next phase of the school year and so, the college year.
So talk about what you do. And how that's been for you, because I know you had
been, suddenly, had to to teach online.
MC: Right. We had to very suddenly move from in-person teaching, classroom
teaching to online platform. And like a lot of my colleagues, I'd never taught
online before. I never had any interest in teaching online before I'm very much
00:42:00a -- I just work best face-to-face. I think with students. I'm, for whatever
reason, I'm generally pretty good at establishing rapport.
I get to know them all by name and a little bit about them just through casual
conversations as people are coming in and out of class. I tend to have a good
record I think when it comes to class participation. Lots of students
participate even in large lecture classes. Cause over the years I've developed
certain skills that help set that tone. I don't think it's any special thing I
was born with or whatever but I've developed skills. Sorry?
LB: You learned how to do it.
MC: Exactly. And being in the classroom face-to-face with students plays to my
skill set. Being online doesn't. And we had to make this transition very
00:43:00quickly. We had a week off for spring break and then spring break was extended
by a week. So we had two weeks basically to get everything organized. And I did
and there were some difficult decisions to make. One of the decisions I made was
to make everything asynchronous because I really didn't have confidence in -- I
just felt too uncertain about whether my students would have time-specific
access to the Internet, etc. ESU, I had a lot of. And also maybe sociology I
think is a subject -- I have a lot of not just racial and ethnic diversity in my
classes but I have a lot of socioeconomic diversity in my classes. So having
00:44:00students who are going to be at home with limited access, uncertain broadband
capacity, all that.
I thought the only way for me to do this is to go asynchronous. Put everything
up there for people to do it as they're able. And then have discussion boards
again that people could kind of, as they were able depending on what their
resources were. And it worked. I think largely because students were patient
with me because they already had rapport. So they were patient with me as I, I'm
not a very tech-savvy person. So as I was learning the software it was a steep
learning curve.
I put something up and they couldn't access it and I had to figure out why they
couldn't access it. But they were patient with me about it and good-humored
00:45:00basically about it. As I speeded by on the seat of my pants basically. But
starting in the fall, starting out online it's not going to be the same
situation. I don't have rapport with those students already. Now my skills are
more developed in the war. I took an online course, not my course that I'm
teaching online. But it was on mechanics. It was not about, how do you
establish, really establish rapport. Connect with -- Because nobody knows that. Sorry?
LB: You'll be able to do it.
MC: I'll try.
LB: You'll be able. I mean, you will.
MC: Well, I'll figure it out and I'll make changes as I go. And I'll have it set
up to go, but I'm sure I'll be making changes as I go, as I figure out well this
isn't working. I need to.
LB: Has ESU announced that they will not be opening?
MC: Yeah. They're full online this fall with the exception of certain kinds of
00:46:00certain kinds of courses that are kind of practically based and things like
athletic training or, you know, nursing or something where they have to do
something. But otherwise, we're all online. So I'm hoping for a hybrid, and I'd
already come up with some ideas about how I could do that. How I could meet with
sort of subsets of students at different times, put other things online to be
done asynchronously. I had sort of thought all that through. I mean I hadn't
created the actual lesson plans and syllabi yet, but I had thought the dynamics
of making a hybrid model work. And then they said we're solely going online. So.
It is what it is.
LB: Well, yeah. I actually think that all of the colleges will be that way.
There are colleges --
MC: Moravian has not declared that yet.
LB: It's ridiculous that they haven't.
00:47:00
MC: Oh I know.
LB: Because it's making every --
MC: Sandy at this point is expected to in the classroom still. I mean she's
expecting it will probably change, but as of now she will be expecting to be in
the classroom.
LB: Well I talked to a number of people who have been working at various
different colleges all over the country. I have a friend in Illinois who is, you
know, the administration, this is at Illinois Wesleyan. The administration said,
"Well, we're going to be opening." And the faculty said, "Yeah, no." Because
they really have a high level of danger. Let me put it that way. And what the
faculty came back with was, the faculty alliance said, "It's unethical to do it.
It's unethical to do it to us and it's unethical to do it to the students. And
if it's a financial problem, well, we'll have to work it out. But right now we
can't put people at risk because we don't know what's going to happen. It would
00:48:00be different if everybody had their masks on."
MC: Right, and one of the things. When ESU was still planning to go with the
hybrid model. Yeah, we had all these Zoom meetings with administrators and they
showed us how they were going to be setting up the classrooms with their new
COVID Capacities and all this over stuff. And they were going to be issuing ESU
logo facemasks to everyone to all the students. We were told we had permission
to tell a student they couldn't enter class without a face mask. So much about
what we were supposed to do when the student says, "I've paid for this class.
I'm coming in whether you are forbidding me too or not."
Those kinds of things weren't so well worked out. But the reality is that even
00:49:00if we could achieve the social distanced classroom, even if we could do that,
and I have one class that's an upper level seminar basically, and all I have is
ten students. We could do that. We could have a social distanced classroom. But,
you can't have, you're going to be able to have students doing social distancing
in the dorms. Or in the frat houses. Things like that. I mean, so yeah, we
believe it's the only responsible decision to make and I'm glad they made it.
LB: Well Roberta Meek is one of the interviews I did, and she's at Muhlenberg,
and she said, "How do we tell students to not act the way they expected to be
able to act when they came to college?" I mean, it's about interaction. It's
about sharing space. It's about you know conversations. It's about living in a
00:50:00new space with new people who are completely different than what you've ever
been with before. And, she said no matter what we say, we tell people not to
drink in the dorm rooms.
MC: That's effective. (laughter)
LB: We tell people, you know, they have to do certain things and we can't
control these, you know, they're adults and they do all sorts of different
things that you're really not supposed to do. And all it has to be is one
person, and then you have to send them home. So, in our greater, our extended
family, we had a group of people who are another family that their daughter came
home from college and she was perfectly fine. They sent her home. It was, the
college is in New York State, and they sent everybody home. It was time for them
to go home. And a few days later, she spiked. And this is somebody very close to
us. Who's like, the temperature and infected everyone in the family. Including
00:51:00the ninety-two-year-old grandmother. And some of them, quite a few people, some
of them got very sick. Two of them had to go in the hospital. Had they not had
certain kinds of ins with the medical community, they would have died. There's
no question. What does that do to a college student, too? Somebody said to me,
"How is this person?" And well, doesn't injure her, she'd be okay. She
recovered. And everybody. They recovered. But it was awful. It was just horrible.
MC: Yeah, just imagine the guilt.
LB: Oh gosh. Can you imagine? Can you imagine? And if that happens with this
kid. Because she didn't know she was sick. She didn't do anything like go to
spring break or anything like that. She came home from college. She didn't know
00:52:00anybody that was sick. So clearly there were other people that were going to
other places that were infecting other people too.
MC: And we just can't know. There's just. And one of the downsides, I think, of,
and again let me just preface this or just reiterate, that I think it's the only
responsible decision to make. To put our curriculum online. But I worry about
the young people. I worry about the queer people should be at home with families
that are not supportive or who are in some cases not just unsupportive. Not just
the absence of --
LB: That risk.
MC: But the presence of antagonism.
LB: There, something like that circumstance. And that person is seeking out an
00:53:00ability to stay at the college even though they won't take, a college in the
community, well a lot of colleges in the community. And some colleges have large
numbers of people on campus. I think Muhlenberg is one hundred kids on campus
who can't go home. They just can't go home for whatever reason. There's no home.
There's too much illness there. There's, they won't be accepted there because
they're queer or something like that. And that's a responsibility of the college
too. So.
MC: We're at ESU I haven't heard of any specific cases. None of the students
that I work with are experiencing that that they've shared with me. I know that
Sandy has a student who's in that situation from Moravian. And they just, you
00:54:00know they check in intermittently. Just report. Our dean of students, who you
probably know. Gene Kelly.
LB: Sure.
MC: Gene Kelly. He was officially named dean of students probably about January
or so, and he's a --
LB: Yeah, I've known Gene for years.
MC: Yeah. And so, he's obviously, if there are students in that situation, he's
probably in charge of making decisions about who's allowed to stay in the dorms.
So I feel like a student if a queer student in that situation were to appeal to
him, to be allowed to stay in the dorm. At least that student would have a very
sympathetic ear.
LB: Yeah. And actually Robin Casey who is the diversity or one or I guess the
00:55:00head of diversity of that kind of level diversity at Muhlenberg, I interviewed
her too. And she was saying that it's actually pretty comfortable because you
get the pick of the dorms. You don't have to stay in the crappy dorms. They get
their own place and they each get their own restroom. But pretty much all the
classes, they just stay in their room. There's no food service. So they can pick
up, but they're paying for that or their loans are going for that or something.
But yeah, all summer they've had about one hundred students on campus.
Hundred students on campus and some of them were in some programs that they sort
of had to be there but, for the most part, it's the way you're describing it.
Internships and that kind of stuff. But it's really complicated. And yet, you
know, there's no alternative right now. We just have to stop hanging out with
each other for a while. We just have to do it. And it's terrible for people that
00:56:00age. It's terrible for people my age, or particularly people Trisha's age.
Because she lives with us and she thinks, "I don't have that many years left to
just waste waiting until it's better. And let's hope it's not another four years
that we have to wait."
MC: On no. I can't even wrap my head around that.
LB: I know. It's so depressing. But anyway. So, I think we covered everything.
Let's see.
MC: There was one other thing that I wanted to mention.
LB: Okay, do
MC: But if you want to look over your list and see if there's anything.
LB: No, I think we're hitting everything. Say whatever you want.
MC: Okay. One upside of all of this isolation and especially when Sandy and I
were both gone and I had literally no responsibilities other than to survive.
00:57:00Because I wasn't teaching summer school or anything. One of the upsides that
normally I don't watch very much television. Very, very little. I had so much
time on my hands that I watched so much Netflix. We only have Netflix and Amazon Prime.
LB: Yeah. We do too. That's all we have.
MC: Okay. So, and I caught up on a lot of my Queer TV. Seriously. I watched all
six seasons of How to Get Away with Murder. Have you watched that?
LB: We saw the beginning episodes.
MC: That is a perfect television show. Start to finish. All six seasons.
LB: I didn't care for it. Because I felt in the first season, we watched it
because Anita Lee, who is the, who was the head of PFLAG in the East Stroudsburg
00:58:00area, her son Justin Lee was a writer on that show, so watched the show, and he
was gone (inaudible) and everything. And you know great acting and it's really
interesting and the dialogue's great. But I thought, "I don't like any character
in this show." And --
MC: Six seasons later, you still won't like any character.
LB: And I can't do that. (inaudible)
MC: Complicated. And you don't know who to trust.
LB: And, so desperate for that, you know, This is Miss Marple. And the bad guy
who gets killed is bad anyway. I'm so --
MC: And Viola Davis is amazing. And her...
LB: She is.
MC: And especially the last couple of seasons when she's completely falling
apart. (inaudible) Her mother I seriously -- that is, as far as like a
television viewing experience where you never really know what's going to
happen, you're on the edge of your seat. You never know who to trust. All that.
00:59:00It's a perfect six seasons. I loved it. And the ending is perfect. Anyway. But I
also, I got, I also watched (inaudible) I watched... Now of course I'm going to
blank on everything. One of those short-term free memberships so I could watch
-- Have you seen it?
LB: No, I haven't seen it.
MC: Get one of the seven-day free trials. Then you again. There's Vida. It's
terrific. It's so good. I watched Gente-fied one of the like, it's an ensemble
kind of cast. But one of the story lines is queer. One of the main characters.
LB: Is that on STARZ?
MC: Sorry?
01:00:00
LB: STARZ, or is it on --
MC: No, that's on Netflix. Gente-fied is on Netflix.
LB: I haven't seen that.
MC: These are both Latinx focused shows which there are a lot of on TV. So I
don't know if they're really got but I watched Atypical. That has a -- There's
kind of exploring her sexuality, identity, like that. I can't even remember
things that I've watched.
LB: Did you watch One Day at a Time?
MC: I have not seen the last season because it's not on Netflix yet. But, yeah.
Schitt's Creek.
LB: Schitt's Creek. Yeah we watch that.
MC: I haven't seen the last season of that either, because it's not on there.
It's just, there's so much good TV than there ever used to be. Even on, there's
a short series that's four episodes or something on Netflix called Unorthodox.
LB: Oh yeah. Adrian was talking. I've seen that. I've seen some.
MC: It's really good. And even that has a queer element to it. I mean my
01:01:00goodness. When we were young people, you know.
LB: I know.
MC: I mean Personal Best was the first movie I ever saw.
LB: Me too.
MC: Right. You know, and you go on looking for things and found things like, The
Killing of Sister George.
LB: Yeah. Or, you know. I always say this. The first movie I saw when I was a
kid, when was growing up in Connecticut. I could watch the million-dollar movie
and they show the same movie every day for a week in the afternoon. If you were
like sick and home from school you just like kept watching this movie and it was
The Children's Hour. And Shirley MacLaine is in this and she plays the gay
character who turns out to be gay. They're accused of being gay. Of course
Audrey Hepburn was in it too. And at the end she confesses that she really is a
lesbian and that she's interested in Audrey Hepburn and then she kills herself.
01:02:00But reality is, and I talk about this all the time, I said when I saw that I
went, and I watched it every single day. And I absolutely have continued to
fantasize about Shirley MacLaine ever since.
I watched every single movie she was in. I saw every television show she was in.
I just thought this, there was even. And I even said this about, The Miracle
Worker where the incredibly hot Anne Bancroft is talking about how when she was
in the orphanage, you know, women who went after young girls, and I'm like,
yeah? Like that was my tune-in to that. That that was so exciting that I could
just hear somebody talking about queer people.
MC: I don't remember ever hearing anything on TV when I was growing up. But, we
01:03:00did have Family, so we had Kristy McNichol.
LB: "Family." That's true.
MC: Kristy McNichol when I was in high school. So there was that. (inaudible)
LB: That's true. Although, yeah, I know. And there was like the oldest daughter
on Eight is Enough.
MC: Right.
LB: And everybody. When you get older, one of the things. You probably know.
[Sandy Fluck?] who was the head of the education department.
MC: Oh, yeah.
LB: So she's [Beth?] (inaudible) really great friends of ours for many years.
They live in Rehoboth now. Sandy was talking about how when she first saw the
movie, this is a dyke thing, when she first saw The Trouble with Angels the
movie The Trouble with Angels, she wanted to be a nun. And universally, if you
01:04:00ask lesbians of that age, and Sandy's a little older than I am. So she's about
seventy now. If you ask people who of that age if that affected them that way.
Some of them just became lesbians. Even the Jewish lesbians?
MC: Yes.
LB: I mean Sandy was a Christian Scientist. She was as far from Catholic. But it
was just this whole thing of like, these women who were kind of hot and fun and
they were having a great time.
MC: A good time, yeah.
LB: And there's no men there. And they treat men like crap when they push them
around. And Ros Russell is so brilliant in that part. And she's got that tough,
big shoulder broad even in the nun's habit deal. So that had that enormous. And
the same The Sound of Music. The nun part of The Sound of Music The nun part of
The Sound of Music. I mean really, really impacted.
01:05:00
MC: Didn't happen for me.
LB: No, I mean to see that there were these communities of women that were
self-governed and tough. And that girls could go into these communities of
women, and then stay there. Cause that's what happens for them. And even the
fact that The Trouble with Angels, which kind of a kitschier thing, Ros Russell
was, that was the remake of it. Part of it was shot in Allentown.
MC: Oh really?
LB: It was at Dorney Park. Yeah at Dorney Park. But that was, I was all
fascinated by that because there's a part where the nun says that it's really
hot. And it's Stella Stevens actually. And she pulls up her habit to expose her
leg because she's so hot. And I just thought. This is so exciting. And just like
the tiny little kernel of excitement there.
MC: Do you remember the first time you saw All About Eve. The heat between the
01:06:00two of them. My God.
LB: That was a lesbian thing at the end. In the last scene. The other woman
comes in. That's actually in Vito Russo's Celluloid Closet in his book where he talks...
MC: It's been so long since I've read it. I don't even remember.
LB: Book's totally different from the documentary in a lot of ways. So it's so
fascinating. No I mean. You know, all of that stuff. Any time there was that
kind of a scene I was like.
MC: Well my obsession when I could. When I was in like high school. And yeah, I
wasn't out yet. Anything that was set in a women's prison. So, I'm living in New
Jersey. This is in the seventies and the PBS station would show an episode of
01:07:00Prisoner: Cell Block H. An Australian series. I was like, I watched it
religiously. Not even knowing what compelled me.
LB: Are you Voyager fan? Star Trek: Voyager. You just need to watch that.
Because it's run by women. And there's this huge subtext of this lesbian
relationship in the second half of the series that they would writing to. And
there's an enormous amount of fan fiction between the captain and this other
character played by Jeri Ryan, which you know. People still, cause that's been
playing in other countries now. And when Kate Mulgrew. Kate Mulgrew was of
course also in Orange is the New Black. She was Red in Orange is the New Black.
She will still do Star Trek conventions and she'll go to like England or
01:08:00something and she'll go into a room and they're be like a thousand people in
there and every one of them is a lesbian.
The one time I heard her, the actress says, "Is there anyone is this room who
isn't gay?" And like one guy. But she says, and these women are coming up and
asking questions and stuff. What about the writing between you and Seven of
Nine. And she says, "Well, that was the best writing. It was really good writing."
MC: I've heard of Seven of Nine. I've heard of that character.
LB: Yeah, so she's the character. At one point, this woman gets up and she's
wearing a T-shirt, of course they've all got these sort of Geordie accents and
they're all all this stuff. And cause they just started to show that a couple
years ago in England all the time. Or in the UK. And she looks at this woman's
T-shirt and she says, "So, I go commando. What does that mean?" And the woman at
01:09:00the podium says, "I'll show you in a little while." And the room erupts with
hysterical laughter. It goes on and on. It's just like that. And I think like --
So I ended up writing a couple of books and one of them has a character in it,
one of the love interest characters is fashioned after Kate Mulgrew as the
person in Voyager.
Although it's nothing like her. I just thought that's a good person to fashion
this character after. And then she, Kate Mulgrew, wrote an autobiography and she
did a reading in Philadelphia at the library in Philadelphia. At the end, you
can have her sign the book. And I gave her one of the books that I wrote that
she's the character. I have a picture of her in my office touching the book.
01:10:00
MC: Cool.
LB: I said, Trish, I really like it that you've indulged this fantasy for me.
So, it was pretty funny. But I think that there's a lot of interesting stuff.
One of the things about Voyager was it was produced in the Clinton era. And so
it's a much gentler show. And so was The Next Generation. Both of those were.
And then there was a later show produced in the more negative era that was much
more, that was in the Bush era, that was much more aggressive and fighting and
blowing people up. But the Voyager has got scenes in it where you just go, "Whoa!"
MC: I'm going to have to check it out.
LB: The second half, so I think there's seven seasons and it starts at the end
of the third season of the new character. There's, Scott Thompson is in it. One
01:11:00of the episodes. It's very very funny. And it's not queer enough, but it has
this woman captain. And they ran the whole series. They didn't say that they
were tired of her. They really didn't. It's worth it. It's worth watching. Plus
it's something else.
MC: We're going to not be going out for a while. So any more things to watch.
LB: I know, I would totally run out of stuff. But I told you about QI. Have you
watched QI?
MC: I have not watched. No, I haven't.
LB: Watch an episode. But only the ones with Sandi Toksvig because she's a
lesbian and she'll say it over and over again. Somebody'll make a joke and
she'll say, some penis joke, and she'll say, "I have no experience with that."
And people will laugh.
MC: That's how I teach. I do that in the lecture all the time.
LB: I do too. I'll say, "I don't really understand this, but some people say."
So, yeah. That's kind of the deal. Well, it's been a while. Let's see if I hit
01:12:00everything. So. So I don't have to ask you if you aren't out at home. You
haven't been laid off.
MC: Only to my family.
LB: That's true. And so what's your biggest frustration during all this stuff.
Asking everybody that.
MC: Frustration. Well I think the hardest thing is the isolation, honestly. I
don't find it frustrating, although I find it. I think it's sad sometimes. I get
sad that I'm not able to spend time with, you know, I have a very. I mean, my
family aside, my support network of friends is very strong, and group of about
five of us who get together regularly. It hurts.
I feel sad that we can only do things by Zoom. That's the thing that's hardest.
01:13:00But I think the thing that's most frustrating is the stuff I read where people
are denying the science. And attacking people who are wearing masks or people
posting signs, "No masks allowed in this store" or whatever. Things like that.
Or when I am out, I mean most people are doing fine. But there are those people
who are, if they're wearing a mask, they're wearing it incorrectly. Their nose
is out, or things like that. It's on their chin. But that is what's most
frustrating because that is what is going to prolong the situation of isolation
that makes me sad. So, I think that's it.
LB: Universally, that's what every single person that I've interviewed has said.
That people are not taking this seriously and they're not doing. You know Gary
01:14:00and Steve, they were my last interview and they said we're doing everything
right, but because people aren't doing things right we still have to stay
inside. We still have to have all the same job worries and all this stuff
because other people. You know to not have the leadership to convince people to
do the right thing. Which is really the job of the leader of the country to do
those things. People like Franklin Roosevelt could talk people into doing the
right thing. You know we could have, make people comfortable. And then make
people understand. You have to do this.
MC: Imagine. Think about World War II and all the rationing that they were
doing. Like, if people won't wear a fucking mask now. Like how --
LB: So the level of frustration is astounding. And I've talked to everybody
01:15:00about, I mean we've talked a little bit about Black Lives Matter. That's one of
the things.
MC: That's one of my frustrations actually. Sorry for cutting you off.
LB: No, that's exactly right.
MC: Because of my anxiety about this and not, they're not unfounded these days,
you know I am someone who typically attends protests and rallies and marches.
That's where I run into you generally, at these things. Right?
LB: Right.
MC: And when George Floyd was killed and we started organizing rallies I felt
unsafe going to them. And so I didn't. You know, Kai, great kid. She's very
01:16:00plugged in to politics and everything. Arguing with all of her friends over
social media about things like Black Lives Matter. Things like income
inequality. All those kinds of things. I'd like to take a little credit for some
of that. But, anyway. She and I at one point we were like, because she likes to
do that too. She likes to be present. She likes to show up. And we were like,
"We want to go but we're not going to go." And that's very hard. I mean, I've
been doing other things. Giving money. Doing the things I can do at a distance.
But it's been very hard not to participate actively.
LB: Everybody I know over fifty has said that. Everybody that I've interviewed.
I mean, in interviewing people who have said. Blaise and Alanna who were saying,
you know, "We've been marching since the sixties." And to not be able to do
01:17:00this. And when the stuff happened in Allentown, Adrian actually texted me right
from the first march, which was and he texted me. It was late at night. And then
the next day, they had another march and I said to Trish, "You know. This is
right outside our house. It's like three blocks away." And I said, "I think I
need to go to this." And she said, "Really?" I mean, I'm at enough risk. But
she's really really at risk. She has lupus. She has lung issues. Stuff like
that. So I said, "Let me look at the thing." And I looked at a video of the
first march, so it was one. And the next night they had another march. And I was
thinking about going the second night. And on the first night there's all these
young people. And they're walking along. They all have masks on. And then I saw
three people who were part of the group who didn't have masks on. And they're
all there. And they're chatting, and they're shouting. And I'm thinking, "I know
01:18:00this is what, I mean I've done this. And I know that this is a risk. And I can't
take this risk. I have to --"
MC: It's so hard.
LB: It is.
MC: You know. Cause it's. I just, yeah.
LB: I can tell you this. I will risk my life to vote.
MC: Oh, hell yes. Have you voted in the primary? I voted by mail.
LB: Yeah. And we just signed up to vote by mail too. But if there is any
possibility not, I will stand in line. I will. And I absolutely will do that. I
will, but I'm not going to. That's it. And I think everybody feels that way who
recognizes how it important it is. This is. So, yeah that's a good thing. Well,
this is the last part. So what gives you hope now? Cause we need to end on a
01:19:00happy little note. And I would guess that part of it is that you have a
wonderful daughter.
MC: Well, what I was going to say is that it's the young people. And she is one
of them. She has lost a lot. She lost the last quarter of her eighth grade year.
You know, she lost her spring field hockey season and all of her summer camps.
She's very into field hockey camps. She does multiple camps in the summer. She's
lost all of that. It's uncertain whether she's going to be going to school. I
mean, right now yes. But. You know, she's had so little. I know. She's had a
couple of contacts with friends where they've done the social distance walk with
the masks on. But, you know, she's lost a lot. And still, she cares about the
01:20:00future. She's not wallowing in this moment of loss forever. And when you talk
about. When I see people out who aren't wearing masks, it is largely people who
are old enough to know better. At least at the supermarket. Or at Lowe's. It's
people in their thirties. Or forties. So it's the young people. It really is the
young people.
LB: And they're the ones that are doing these really great marches. I mean
they're really speaking out about this.
MC: Yes. They're feeling empowered. And, God, please all of them who are able
to, go out to vote. That's the thing. I feel like they're dealing with all this
a lot better than some of their parents are.
01:21:00
LB: Well, one of the things when I interviewed somebody who was 22 and had just
graduated from Moravian. And he was saying that -- I mean, he was very calm and
he was concerned about this. And he said the same thing. He was frustrated with
people who don't believe this. But he also was inherently calm. And one of the
reasons he was calm was that he has his whole life in front of him. He doesn't
have to think he's sucking up the last. You know like this is my last chance. I
mean things will work out. Things will be okay. This person is being very
careful. They're probably not going to get the disease. Because they're being
very, very careful. They're not going to make that happen to themselves.
MC: And that's another thing. The smart. Okay. This is going to sound terrible,
probably. I don't know if I should say it. You know, it's being recorded.
LB: Go ahead. Say it.
MC: You know. Survival of the fittest doesn't mean survival of the physically
01:22:00strongest necessarily. It means survival of the most adaptable.
LB: Right.
MC: That's what it is really. And is this situation, adapting means wearing your
mask and using social distancing and minimizing your risks. And that seems to
be. It seems to be what most of the smartest people are doing.
LB: Except for the people in my family that got sick. They were absolutely in
their own household.
MC: Right, exactly. But what I'm saying is it seems like if you look at the
states that have really not handled this way. And where they rank educationally
and all those kinds of things. While I'm not saying this is an absolute. You
know, as you were saying your family, for example. Things we don't know. But it
01:23:00seems like those who are attracting the most risks to themselves. You know who
are flagrantly doing that aren't the sharpest tools in the shed.
LB: No, I think that's really true.
MC: And that gives me hope for the future.
LB: I mean, it does because. You don't want to say something mean about them,
but this is one of the realities is that it's a socioeconomic situation too. And
so one of the people that I interviewed was saying that their daughter has a
congenital heart problem. But her job is that she's seen as an essential worker.
She's a waitress. I mean she's a layperson. Like that's an essential worker. And
this person who is working in Northampton County is working at a restaurant
where they're not following the protocols that they're supposed to be, and she
has complained that she has a very high risk. And they said, if you have a
01:24:00problem just don't come in and we'll consider it your resignation, which means
they won't pay her unemployment. And so, you know, for those of us who can do --
MC: You're right. You're right. I guess I'm being a little flip there. But,
you're absolutely right in what you're saying.
LB: I think that there's a reality to --
MC: I realize that I've got a lot of privilege when I say that.
LB: I know. And the unfortunate is that even with the flu. I like to talk about
this all the time because I'm obsessed with the flu epidemic of 1918 and that
has to do with the fact that my area of expertise with regard to art history is
around that time. In that section of the and how it affected people and it also
affected me directly because my grandmother died in that flu epidemic. She was
32 years old when my father was four. And so it affected my life because my Dad
grew up without a mother. I didn't have two grandmothers. That kind of stuff.
But the most significant thing about that flu epidemic was. Well, there's
01:25:00several things -- one hundred million, fifty to one hundred million people died
of that flu. One in three people of the world had it. But the most significant
reasons for that we were at war. Everybody was at war. And they all didn't want
to talk about the fact that their country was having casualties from an illness.
So there was actually sedition laws that you couldn't talk about the flu
epidemic in 1918.
MC: Really? I wasn't aware of that.
LB: And that's why it's called the Spanish Flu. Because Spain was the only
country that was not in World War I. They were neutral. And so they were
reporting on all of the stuff that was happening. All these people were dying in
Spain because they were dying anywhere. So it was the headlines of the
newspaper, but they wouldn't talk about it in England or Germany or the US.
Because they didn't want to tell anybody that we were all sick. It all happened
in 1918. And interestingly, it was about a fifteen-month period and it was much
01:26:00more serious than this. For one thing, it struck people between the ages of 20
to 40. That was the primary thing.
People would die in one day. And they'd show symptoms in the morning and die at
the end of the day. And you know, one month in New York City twenty-three
thousand people died. And people in Allentown. There was a huge number of people
in Allentown, huge number of people in Easton. But Bethlehem actually
quarantined so they didn't have as many cases. They had hundreds of cases
instead of thousands of cases. But nobody was allowed to talk about it, so
there's not a lot of information about it. That's one of the reasons that we
really. So, there was a herd immunity there because so many people had it.
Hilda Doolittle had it, among other things. She almost died from it. That's how
she met Bryher, the lesbian that she stayed with for the rest of her life. She
came and took care of her. Also, women who were pregnant were much more likely
to get it and seventy-two percent of the women who were pregnant who got it
died. So I think my grandmother was pregnant. And Hilda Doolittle was pregnant.
01:27:00She had a miscarriage and she was so sick. She was rich, but she was really
really sick. It was during World War II, or World War I. And Bryher came and
said, "You're really sick. I need to take you some place and make you health."
Bryher was the richest woman in the UK at the time. And took her away to an
island where they could quarantine so that she could get better and she did.
But, it was a terrible terrible illness. And yet we weren't allowed to talk
about it. And that's kind of the way this is now. You know, we won't have as
many cases if we just stop testing people. So same mentality one hundred years later.
MC: I wonder if, so I'm sure you've heard that Herman Cain died.
LB: Yeah. I just read that.
MC: And I wonder if that will catch the attention of some people. Like, well
01:28:00maybe this is real. You know, one of ours died.
LB: Who was infected by Trump. I mean he was in Tulsa.
MC: I know. But if, in addition to him, if one or two other sort of high-profile
Republicans were to die, maybe. I could make suggestions if you want, but you know.
LB: What I was going to say was, some people, Trish is a medical professional
and she said. Until people know people who have been sick and died.
MC: I'm sorry I didn't get that.
LB: Until people know people who have been sick and died, they're just acting
like it's not happening. Because they don't know anybody who has been sick or
who has died. Particularly who has died. And so, a crazy guy. A repair guy came
01:29:00to one of the people that I was interviewing's house and he said, "You know,
this is all a plot by Hillary to make people get sick so that would collapse --"
Like Hillary would do this now. To collapse the economy so that Trump won't win.
And this person said, "Yeah, well. Okay." You know, and he said to him, "You
don't know anybody's who's been sick, do you?" And you goes, well, "I don't know
anybody personal. I know some people who have been sick but not in my personal
circle who has been sick." So see, nobody really has it.
Well, they're going to wait until people really have it. You know, it's not
enough to have five hundred people die in Allentown. It has to be five hundred
people in your own circle. People die. So that in the really high. And with the
flu epidemic of 1918, it was the same situation. There was a lot of deaths, then
it sort of ended. It didn't go. Then there was this second wave that was just
01:30:00horrible. It was exactly the same configuration of the year that was just, where
people would get like on a subway car. Coney Island. By the time they get off
they collapsed and died. You know, just happened when they were in areas like
that. Just happened so easily. And so maybe that is not going to be the -- Some
people are thinking that's not going to be the case. It's not the same kind of
thing. Some people are saying that little kids are less likely to get it. But as
my friend who's a pediatrician said, you know, she said I'm getting a lot of
people saying, do you think I can go ahead and send my kid to daycare? And she
said, so when you send your kids to daycare, do they ever get sick from any of
the other kids there?
They get everything there. If you do it, they will get it. They're going to get
sick. Or they're going to get exposed. And then they're going to have it. Maybe
they won't get really sick, but you'll have to look around your circle of family
01:31:00and friends and see if there's anybody there that's really going to be at risk.
So a lot of the people who I have interviewed who have been older have said that
was the thing that really bothered them because they couldn't really see their
grandkids because they're the ones at risk. And they don't want to do that to
their grandkids. It's really.
MC: That's got to be really hard.
LB: Yeah, I talked to, I interviewed one guy who said his father was intubated
for two weeks and was very close. You know, had he not been intubated. He was in
the hospital with intubation for two weeks. It's so horrible to have that too.
And people who I know who have had it. It's so awful that it's like a PTSD
thing. I wanted to interview some people that have been sick and they couldn't
talk about it, it was so awful. People don't understand how awful it is. It's
really. If you get it bad, it's really not like anything else. It's not just
having the flu.
MC: It's not just like the sniffles.
LB: No. It's really not like even like having a bad flu. It's like having -- So
01:32:00I have a very close friend who had it and she said. You know, she had a one
hundred three temperature for two weeks. She said she woke up every morning
saying to herself, okay, today I just have to not die. And she said, if I have
to go to the bathroom, I had to crawl there. I couldn't walk. And she luckily
had other people around who finally took her to the hospital.
She was in contact with people and she said, you need to, it's too many days for
you to have this high temperature. And she went into the hospital and then they
did a bunch of stuff to her and she got better. But, she's still suffering from
that, and other people that we know are still having symptoms of it. One person
that I talked to said after months they had a close family member that had it.
And after a month they were still just, couldn't do anything it was so. So I
01:33:00think that people don't understand how serious it is. And unfortunately, people
may have to know somebody before they'll take this seriously. And there are some
media problems with it too. I don't think the media is making it clear enough to
people. Although, what, you know. I mean, if you tell somebody that one hundred
fifty thousand people in America have died, and they say, "Yeah, but it's all a
hoax." How do you fix that? I mean --
MC: I don't know. I don't know that you can.
LB: Yeah.
MC: Maybe like I said, maybe some high profile people die.
LB: Sure.
MC: And, not just high profile people. But, high profile anti-mask people.
01:34:00
LB: Or deniers of it. Yeah. No certainly an example of that.
MC: Maybe that will shake people out of their complacency.
LB: Well, it's pretty hard to say, oh this is my group is people. You don't have
to do masks. Don't do that standing behind me. Then they find out that there's a
contamination there. An infection. And then one of the ten people that's sitting
there dies. I mean, how do you? You know, it's blinders.
MC: Oh yeah.
LB: It's so hard. I don't know. And it's hard to know really how -- I mean, do
you get students in classes who will sometimes say things to you like, how could
you possibly think that was true?
MC: Oh yeah. Yeah. I just have to stop myself from laughing usually. Like,
really, you think this?
LB: Do you want say like, could you write a paper about that? I want you to
01:35:00research that and bring me some real citations that aren't just from some crazy.
MC: Yeah and it's -- But the thing is that, I don't know. I thought with my
students that if I say something like, "I get how you might think that's how it
is, but here's some other information. And I think that you should just think
about that. I generally don't tell them that they're wrong. But, I just try to
say here's some other information that's verifiable. You can go and check it out
if you want to. I just give them something to think about. And I just leave it
with them. Because, what are you going to do, right?
LB: There's a woman who posts a lot of very very interesting particularly
feminist thing. Lesbian things on the Internet for a long time. And I have quite
01:36:00a relationship with her and I was working with her on some projects and stuff.
And she started to post stuff that was particularly TERFy. It was just really,
really major TERF stuff. And she posted some --
MC: Oh man you started.
LB: And she posted a thing that said that ten thousand people in the UK who had
transitioned through this one clinic were detransitioning. And I looked it up. I
actually know this person. She's a famous playwright in the lesbian community.
And I looked it up. And she said, "Well, this is the information." And I was --
this was a Facebook exchange. And I said, "I looked this up, and this is
absolutely not true. You're retweeting something. If you read the article,
that's not even what the article says. And if you read it, that's not what it
says. She says, "Well it's in the Guardian." And I said, "No it isn't. You
didn't even read the article.
01:37:00
What it says is that tens of thousands of people went to this clinic in the UK
because it's the only national health clinic that does transgender surgery for
free, in effect, for the national health. That if you live in Wales you have to
go to that clinic. You have to travel a long way, but you get free really good
health care and you get free transition surgery. It doesn't say anything
detransitioning. It doesn't say anything about that at all." And she said, "But
I know people who detransitioned." I said, "But you posted something that's
absolutely not true, and you can't do that. You can't put this thing up and
cause divisiveness between our community. And then with phony information." I
said, "I can't pretend this doesn't matter to me."
MC: Good on you.
LB: Even though I really, I had a lot of admiration for this person. I was
beginning to think, you know, where are you getting this? Well I researched.
01:38:00But, that's not what you posted. You posted something that wasn't true. So,
anyway. Yeah, that's not what we need right now either.
MC: No it is not.
LB: It's really hard because you hear about all these crazies all the time. And
it's very depressing. And it's hard for any of us to say, "I think Joe Biden is
going to win." Because we already got kicked in the head four years ago when we
really thought Hillary was going to win. And so none of us is complacent or
comfortable. We're just too on edge.
MC: It's probably the single greatest source of anxiety that I have.
LB: No kidding.
MC: That it will be stolen. That it will be. You know.
LB: Yeah. And I sent a message to somebody who was here and he's moved to
01:39:00Lisbon, Portugal. And I needed to tell him about something, and he said, "You
sent this to me at two o'clock in the morning. You're up in the middle of the
night." And I said, "Yeah, I haven't slept since the election. Since the last
presidential election. Actually six months before that. And I guess one of the
frustrations and angers I have is I don't know how, if I'm ever going to feel
not this way. Even if things go better. I'm never going to feel the way I felt
during the Obama administration again. Cause I'm just too aware of the stupidity
and. That's another thing too. I just don't think like and I know other people
that said that they've developed a level of agoraphobia.
MC: Whataphobia?
LB: Agoraphobia. They just don't feel comfortable going out. And you know,
01:40:00Adrian has talked about opening the center. And immediately I'm going like I'm
going to -- I just said. And I said I'm not going to do it. And I just said it's
a long way off. Don't worry about it now. And I think that's a good thing for
him to say.
MC: I think you're right. I think it's going to be hard to venture back in the
world again. They're going to be a lot of baby steps involved.
LB: And yet they did it after the flu epidemic of 1918. And you don't really
hear about that. I mean it was. But that was one of the reasons why the roaring
twenties was as roaring as they were. There was a lot of reasons for that. That
was another reason. A lot of people, they did quarantine. And there were parts,
like people would go to Philadelphia there was no one on the street. Middle of
the day. And was a ghost town. So I don't know. There's going to be. It will be
01:41:00interesting to see.
MC: I'm sorry.
LB: I want you to say whatever you want to say, go ahead.
MC: This hour-long interview's been two hours.
LB: One hour and forty-one minutes.
MC: It's fine with me. The one thing that gives me hope is to watch the
political news pretty closely and seeing, you know, people like Ritchie Torres,
you know, winning his -- I don't think it's been officially declared yet, but
it's a done deal. You know. Jamaal Bowman winning his primary. Mondaire Jones.
Of course, AOC. Seeing again it's the young people, you know, who are just
01:42:00giving me hope. They're giving me more, more. It's going to be a slow process.
But I'm thinking about what's happening now in the Trump administration.
I don't even like saying his name to be perfectly honest. It makes me throw up a
little in my mouth. But I hope, I tell myself that we're watching the death
throes of white unrepentant white supremacy. Unrepentant male supremacy. That
it's in its death throes now and this is its sort of last surge of. I'm telling
myself that. I need to believe that. And I take a lot of hope from seeing. I was
just saying, you saw the folks, you're seeing Katie Porter taking people down.
You know, she's a bad ass. I mean, just there are more and more people that are
01:43:00entering positions of power who can make a difference. I got to take hope from that.
LB: Good. Yeah. Well, that's the secret. At Muhlenberg when Adrian was a student
at Muhlenberg and it was the Obama election, there was I often I give this
dynamic people and reasons to do things and she has say, has been about
forty-five kids and then forty-five college students and when Adrian was there
it was seven hundred college students. And then when they left it was forty-five
again. And he organized for those students to go vote. And I really think that
Obama's win was because of students, of college students. Which I don't think
01:44:00Hillary Clinton ignite at all.
MC: Nor is Joe Biden, and I hope that whoever he --
LB: But I think that other things are igniting college students now.
MC: True.
LB: And I think that's one of the things. I mean sometimes you have to look at
the other side and say, okay, there is a difference. And people are all saying
that. So that if Joe Biden says, and he is saying publicly the financial
circumstances of taking care of students, student college loans, which of course
is not coming out of the Trump administration. But, to be able to compare those
things and that students need to say, okay, this is how we can engage in this
group. We cannot engage this group. And so, if these people are running the
government, we can demand change. We can't demand any change. Trump, we can
01:45:00demand it but nothing's going to happen. And so I think the young people that
are, I'm hoping that people. And the reason is we're seeing this happen in
elections that people are standing in line for eight hours at risk for COVID but
they're still doing it just to be able to vote in a primary when they've never
done that before.
Well that's a big deal. You know, that's a lot of numbers here. I just read, and
I don't know if this is true, that a million people, a million Democrats have
registered to vote by mail in Florida. Well, that's a lot of people already to
be doing. And that's a very significant thing. So that's what I want. We just
got money to encourage people to vote by mail and we just got a grant to be
01:46:00working on that. That's going to be something after to be working on. But I
think that that kind of stuff just more votes is more good votes and that's
going to happen. That's absolutely true. And so those things have been different
too. So, I'm knocking on wood.
MC: They give me hope.
LB: Definitely not complacent. And I also said to Trish, if it doesn't work this
way, I mean we're going to see major upheavals and major organizations. You
know, scary are the circumstances. But if that happens, you know, we'll have to
roll with that too.
MC: Survival of the most adaptable.
LB: That's a brilliant thing to say. I really think that's true. And I say to
people. And people say things like I can't do this. I can't do this. Change is
hard but we have to change. Everything about us. Everything about the queer
01:47:00community is about change. So if you're uncomfortable about this, get over it
for Christ's sake. For heavens. We've been doing this for. We've had to change
people's minds all along.
MC: Absolutely.
LB: From forever. That's how we thrive. We can't just go, "Okay, everything's
fine now." Cause it's never going to be that way. So did I already ask you this?
I guess maybe I have. To say something to somebody in the future if they're
looking at this archive and you can make a little soundbite and say now. I know
it's a big responsibility.
MC: Well, yeah. I don't remember that one.
LB: For me, I mean I say to people like, the people in the future know what
happened. They know who won the election. They know what happened with COVID.
They know what it's like to live thirty years from now. But they don't know
01:48:00exactly what it's like for individuals now. And that's why we're making these videos.
MC: I guess what I'm going to say is so trite really, I think. I said before,
there's nothing original about it. But, first of all I have to thank you for
watching these. Thank you for going into this archive to learn about this.
Because honestly if we don't learn about history we are going to repeat it. And
it's not going to be pretty and it's not going to be fun. And our testimonies to
the fact that it's not pretty and it's not fun. So yeah. Learn history and
01:49:00spread it to those. Others will know too. Otherwise you'll end up entering a
situation just like this. Where you're the ones making the archives. So again,
nothing original in that but I think that's probably what I would say.
LB: Well I really appreciate this so much and thank you for letting me talk to
you for so long. I've been talking way too much. I'm not supposed to say anything.
MC: I really approached this as a conversation more than.
LB: I take it as that.
MC: And I've really enjoyed this conversation.
LB: Good. And I'm also to come and fix your house as soon as COVID's --
MC: Awesome, excellent.
LB: I'm going to turn off the recording now. So thank you again so much.
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